Songs of Milan

Paranoia 🃏

You're collecting scars but you look away, I'm losing my mind as the dark seizes all hope and sanity left inside, projecting film within my mind bringing me closer to the sadder sounds ..

No calm, no silence, its the projection of a walking suicide, your eyes stay shut and my screams fall faint, my tears come to relieve me

I only wanted to make it better, but you break me down each night and feed on my hollow soul, I can't make you stop ..I need to disappear ..

"I only want to make you better, lose yourself, fall in to me, let the blood flow"
I'll never be free ..

I tried to recreate you inside my head, you spoke so softly..resonating in my subconscious ..it breaks my heart, cause every time might be the last time .. I succumb to the depths of the darkness within my mind that I always fail to neglect
"I only want to make you better, let me turn off the light within your eyes ..it'll be our little secret, I only want to make you better ..I can set you free ..say goodbye and run to me" it breaks my heart but I can't make you stop when you're already gone..

I can't breathe ..fades out ..I can't breathe .."I can set you free Milan, follow the trail of lost souls and shattered minds, tonight you're all mine"

How'd I get here? blindfolded on my knees, a fire before me as the already fading memories say there final goodbyes .."I want you to show me weak" I feel my insides disappear, choking on my own tears ..death ..never have I seemed so touchable, caught in a losing battle with my psychotic mind ..I can feel you in my heart, I begin to break ..why are you doing this ..

The morning follows and I can't remember, my mind tells me I'm fine, bad things never neglect me, bad thoughts never seem to arrest me, I'm just another flash in a memory ..I lost my sense of light long ago ..I've been trapped here ever since

The night will fall and you'll come for me again, another night of breaking for you, uncontrollable tears and suicidal temptation ..I die a little more .."let me in" but I can't !

"will you wanna hurt your face tonight?"
silence ..

I fight to pull myself from harm and cry no more, but what's the point? you'll always win

I'll never be free ..
You're collecting scars but you look away, burn a hole in my mind, throw this darkness down and bury it, I'll see you later in the night where all the colors are dark and glowing, I don't really wanna die

"I just want to make you better, fall in me tonight ..I'll make you better, I'll let you bleed"

You blacken my eyes, but I'm still running ..

"you can kill us all and finally be alone" leave me alone ..

They say destroy what destroys you .. but what if the thing destroying you is yourself ...