Songs of Milan

When She Calls 📵

When she calls tell me truth .. is it more than I knew ? I knew ..

You turned me into a secret to memorize alone to justify this feeling you've placed in my mind that I can't escape, I should've known you'd break me ..

I still remember the day my heart broke in 2, I'd never known true pain .. until I handed my heart to you and watched it bruise slowly as you removed all the sweetness and threw it back down at my feet and walked away .. I was paralyzed and confused not knowing whether to pick up the pieces I had left and run to you .. or stitch up the seams and remove the rusted nails as we laid there bathing in flames trying to figure out what we did to make you upset .. we stayed .. waiting for you ..

You didn't mean it ..

I got lost in love with you, it was such a pretty thing that left me dying without a cure
I just wanna be your favorite ..

"you're the one to blame, wake up, it'll NEVER be you, you've always been a temporary distraction thats never known when to leave, you pull them from life when its too much to handle and numb the pain, but you're never permanent, you'll never know more than second best .."

And I know its my fault ..

What's wrong with me ?

sometimes I stay awake at night staring into my own vicious reflection trying to find peace, I can never seem to stop my mind from driving me to these sadder sounds, I can't close my eyes without blood hitting the pavement from my eyes, I'll never understand how you could just take from me and give to another the very thing you've never given to me ..why is it never me ?

It was my choice to stay even though I can't help it, love tearing up my own broken heart over, over, and again, for this love shot violence into my heart, I'm always so in love, all in..until I start going numb thinking ..when she calls, tell me truth ..