Songs of Milan

Heart Defects 💔

You like to call me when I'm alone ..
"You say to yourself run and hide, but you can never hide from me..close your eyes and dive into the dark, you'll hear me whispering..won't you let me poison your heart? let me fall in ..poison..let me in"

What if I love her ..
"its not real"
But what if I love her ..
"she'll only break you"
I think I love her ..
"tell me, are you ready to bleed?"

I can never get away, there's a hole in my conscious as the dark leaves me blindfolded on my knees dismembering whats left.

Hungry vultures circling my heart, they smell my truth, the pure thought of you causes me to lose myself within the promise of you, each illusion warps uncontrollably around my heart, you awaken my conscious but within this darkness, no light can save you, hyperventilation consumes my mind

"she can't save you"

My mind falls apart over you, clinging to the idea of a happy ending with you, begging the dark to let you become a part of me, how selfish of me, to want to bring you into these ruins and let the beauty within this darkness tear through your flesh and torture your mind.

"you don't deserve her"

I know ..but see you don't understand what she does to me, while I was blinded by my own tears I felt her soul caress my wounds, her words penetrates my mind, I saw our falling bodies floor by floor, through her touch she shed light to my conscious, I stumbled upon a thousand ways to love.

To the world we were nothing, but in my mind we're everything ..

"you're not enough for her, you're too weak"

I know ..but I can't leave ..I want to give to her everything that's never been given to me, she deserves so much better than me..but I won't leave, I let her soul inside of me and I refuse to let it go, I've never been good at expressing my feelings, the dark won't release me..as it corrupts my mind.

The thought of you helps me escape into a never ending parallel where my heart knows no more pain and my mind escapes its death, you help comfort me until I'm losing it, I take the time to memorize and before my eyes you disappear..not before you watch me slip into my oblivion.

"she's better off without you"

Maybe I'm not good enough..maybe I can't make her as happy as her latest, maybe I can't satisfy her heart the way she can..

I was never taught how to love or even the meaning of love itself.. I don't know what this feeling is but I know its what keeps the goofiest smile upon my face, its what covers my wounds, as her smile allows them to heal, this feeling releases me from my suffering, it lifts me from my ruins and stops the bleeding, if this is love I'm never going home ..

"look at you, you're nothing more than pitiful black scattered shadows of your own ruins, she'll never love you, you will NEVER come close to falling worthy, you can't hide from the truth anymore, its a high price paid in blood, to the very last drop"

You can never get away, sweet paralyzation.

"You say to yourself run and hide, close your eyes and dive in the dark, you'll hear me whispering..are you ready to bleed?"

You like to call me when in alone.