Life's great: for some

Chapter 1

Just quickly I'm not american so this isn't a high school but you are free to imagine the school how you want -

I wish I could tell you how I got here: sitting on a toilet, legs against my chest, listening to those sad lofi beats, you know the ones i mean. I would say my birth that's always a good place or start or maybe even the time I walked out of my counsellors office never booking another appointment. However I was still here, trying my best to keep it together, I didn't even know why I was sad, if I was even sad: maybe empty? That didn't matter though what apparently did matter to my racing mind was the good ol' 'how long can I stay in the bathroom before someone gets suspicious of my absence'. 

Answer, the whole of lunch, a whole 40 minutes I sat in that bathroom and as I walked out at the bell to my next lesson and not a single one of my friends asked where I went. Guess you could say that's a good thing, how would I tell them I spent 40 minutes in the disgusting school bathrooms listening to sad lofi beats cause I felt too many emotions or none at all, then again with the depressing Gen Z humour they'd probably laugh and then would come the generic "Same" or "Mood" don't get me wrong I use those words like they're the only drop of water in a desert but it's not even at things that make sense, a door could slam shut and I'd instantly say same. I'd describe myself as a generic Gen Z kid though, I mean I watch James Charles, use too many depressing jokes, live off memes, oh and i'm a big gay well bisexual but referring to myself as just a big gay is way more pleasing, women are just so neat y'know. 

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This lesson just dragged on and on and on.. why did it never stop? I love history mainly because it's the only lesson that i'm like semi good at, I'm betting on history most likely being the only GCSE I pass, maybe art if the examiner really pities me. Ahh back to history, I get too side track over nothing, I sit at the back on a table next to someone I never talk to and connected to my table is my friend sat at a table by himself, at least I think we're friends I mean do you ever truly announce you're friends to each other? it just kind of happens right after you talk for so long, we joke about having a similar sense of humour, good ol' depressing humour bringing kids together. There's nothing really significant about him, not in a rude way there just isn't because this isn't a story where I sit here and tell you I've got a fat ass crush on him and love his brown eyes because I don't, in fact I haven't had a crush since I was 7. A friend did ship us once, well friend is debatable she annoys me a lot but has never done anything mean to me so I don't hate her, It was a horrible time she even made a ship name. I shuddered at the memory now is not a good time  "What did you just do?" Dom looked at me weirdly 

"Was just reminded of how shit my life was" I reply back 

He cracked a smile "I'm surprised you could forget"

"Yeah" I smiled back, returning to my work - Anglo-Saxons, how fun. 

History ended and I booked it out of the classroom, I was not getting stuck in the stupid small corridor while people shoved you going both directions, heading down the stairs to make my way outside. Break times went so slow for nothing happening like all I did was stand waiting for my friends outside in our area and then from time to time talk, most of it spent standing awkwardly in the cold and listening to others conversations until the bell went: that's what I did this break too. Next was maths with Mr Perry hands down maths had to be one of the most boring lessons ever, I originally thought I was pretty alright at maths but recent test scores would suggest otherwise so now I wallow in self pity that i'll never be good and have basically just given up completely because of a couple bad test scores: sounds about right for me. 

I'll honestly just save you the bore of the rest of my day- I mean the rest of my day was just to exciting that I can't possibly tell you all of it. 

Ahhh I've decided to write again cause my first story ended up dying cause I didn't want to write it any longer but I wanna try writing again.

This story will probably have terrible punctuation because I add way too many commas and overall suck at it. 

I hope it's alright though :)