My anxiety is a confusing thing. It's not like normal people's anxiety.
It's like a feeling of being closed in and alone. I feel like I can't sense anything around me. And I hate it.
My anxiety attacks consist of me shaking and gripping my hair. Sometimes screaming. And being unable to breathe properly. Sometimes I cry but I hardly cry anymore.
I also have social anxiety badly. Yay.
(Sarcasm)
If I am in a crowd. I MUST have physical contact with a friend at all times or I'll lose my shit. I can't go into crowds alone or I'll feel dizzy and lost. I constantly feel judged and swarmed in public and I honestly hate going in public without my friends.
My friends really make me feel safe. So I'm extremely dependent on them. Which isn't exactly good. (I'll explain this further later)
I hate anxiety. I have lots of anxiety tells-
-I grip my throat and pull at the skin or a necklace really roughly
-I grip my hair sometimes
-I clench my fists
-I fidget a lot
/with sleeves or clothing or anything like that/
I honestly wish anxiety didn't exist because it sucks. It affects half the stuff I do. But it's part of who I am and I'm trying to accept that. Idk if I'm succeeding at that but I'll sure as hell try.
