Mias' Story

HOODIES

 Being confident or even comfortable in your own skin is already a very hard thing.

My name is Mia I am 13, a teenager that is about 5'5 and I consider myself to be "a big girl" but to others, I guess not. To others, I am "don't talk to me little girl" or "don't say things like that to me, little girl." I am not comfortable in my father's house, I do not have my own space to myself; a space to call mine. I am fed up and afraid of my father. My father did not have a dad himself but he insisted of being apart of mine. He is a controlling, unreliable, child who needs to get his head out of never land, and grow up!
I was not always in discomfort at my moms' house but ever since her on off on off "friend" I feel more distant with my mom. And for the record, my "feelings" towards her "friend" is pure anger, frustration, and hatred. I feel he has taken away the last person in the world who actually loved me.
I don't even want to start to try to explain all my Insecurities. This is sad but the only good part of my life is when I'm at school. When my mind is distracted and focused on other things. I purposely stay later than 4:oo sometimes at school practicing in band or doing work because I do not want to go home. My friends are supportive and I know they've been through worse or similar things as I. My outlet to express all my feelings are at MAPA (Maui Academy of performing arts) where I take hip hop, breakdancing, contemporary, Broadway, jazz musical theater heals class, pre-point ballet, I also take horseback riding lessons on Saturdays.
I don't think they realize how sleepless nights can affect you or how overthinking slowly kills you. I don't think they know how it can turn your mind into thoughts you wish weren't yours.

HODDIES, they keep you warm, they are comfy, they are like big blankets you can hide and sleep in, they hide things you don't want society see; because if they saw they would not try to be sympathetic they would just point and yell out and accuse you "WHY DO YOU DO THAT, YOU JUST WANT ATTENTION!"

I did not write this for you to feel remorseful for me so please don't.