lost {Felix × Banchan}

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Have you ever lost someone that means everything to you? Someone that you love dearly? I have and its the absolute worst pain I've ever felt. Let me describe how painful it is. When you lose them it feels like you've lost a part of yourself, like nothing matters anymore. You lose interest in life, when you're at school you don't pay any attention, you don't do your homework because you don't understand what it is asking you. You feel like you're lost. Even when you know exactly where you are, you're feeling as though you can't figure out where you're at.  Your other friends will end up leaving you. It won't be a sudden stop, at first they'll invite you to do stuff with them but after many months of declining they give up. You stop doing stuff that other teens would do like go out to party's or sneaking into bars or sneaking out to meet a girl or in my case a guy. Thats not who I am any more. Not since I've lost her. She meant everything to me. She was my bestfriend, perfection. I regret letting her walk home alone. The night I was too busy caught up in.

*flashback*

April 13th, 2018. 5:07 pm

"Felix! I have to leave now! Let's sneak out tonight. I have something to give you." She flashed her perfectly straight and pearly white teeth at me. I just nodded looking at my book.

5:30 pm

As I see Mina's contact pop up on my phone I smile and answered the call. "Mina you just left do you miss me already?" I chuckled lightly. "Sir, I'm sorry to inform you but Mina is in terrible condition right now. Get to Xxx hospital right away please." I dont answer, I run. As tears run down my face I run to the hospital. I run in and see a nurse at the check in station. I run to it "Excuse me ma'am I'm looking for Song Mina. What room is she in?" I ask trembling with fear. She looked up with a face of sadness "I'm sorry sir, there is no longer a Song Mina here, sadly she has died. We tried our best to help her but we were too late.." She said going back to her work. I turned around and walked out of the hospital. I was crying even more now, if I had just walked her home, I could've stopped it. I went home and layed in my bed for hours until I had fallen asleep. Mina, you will always be my bestfriend I love you. I dreamed about us sneaking out and how we'd one day see each other again.