Always (a matthew espinosa story)

chapter 3

chapter 3

i then hear then hear the door crack open.

"sissy why are you crying" she said

"oh um nothing im not crying" i lied once again trying to wipe away the tears rolling down my cheeks

"why do you have blood on your wrist" she asked

"oh umm..come here" i said. i have to tell her sooner or later but i"ll tell her when shes older. She won't understand and I don't want to be a bad influence

she then came over and she sat on my lap i put my arms around her and stroke her hazel hair and i started to sing to her a song from sleeping with sirens- free now

"I am free now

Free to live without my fears

I believe now

Theres a reason why Im here

Can I be a man?

One that understands

How to love more patiently

I'll be free now

I'll be free now.

And we dream of the day, when our kids can play

In the streets with no fear of them being taken away

Fathers raise their sons with respect and love

Handle anger and pain with no need for no guns

If we hope to be free it takes you and me

To start over here and now

'Cause this world is, the way it is, it's how we raise our kids."

Then my sister fell asleep so i carry her to her room and put her to bed. i the clean up the mess i made and did my homework and then went and took a shower. i let the hot watter run down my back. i then got out and brush my theeth and i put on some shorts and a tank top and went to bed. I cried and cried the night away maybe I don't deserve to live but at the end I'm the one who can bring myself up. If I only had the courage. If only Matthew was here or Luke.

matt POV

i was in the car along with brooklyn and layla.

"so dose jessica always beat marine up" i said

"yeah she dose it usally happens when marine dosent do the things she tells her to do or "obey" her" layla said

"we always try to help her but jessica's bitch crew always blocks our way" brooklyn tells me

"And every time it gets worse, but god damit if I could beat Jessica's ass I would no one deserves to be treated like that, the girl is already going through so much" Layla said with aggression

i feel very guilty that i wasnt their for her i could have prevent them from hiting her. we then got to my house and i waved goodbye to the girls and headed inside.

"hey hon how was your first day" my mom said

"it was amazing i met new people and turns out they are having football try outs and i met the most beautiful girl" i said as I put my book back down

"oh and who"s this beautiful girl " my dad said as he came in

"oh hey dad, her name is marine falls and she's just amazing but I'm Just going to take things slow" i said as I sat down in the kitchen counter

"oh well im proud of you son that you met a beautifull girl" my dad said

"and when can we meet her" my mom said