pain.

I miss you.

I miss him with everything I have.

I miss our long late night conversations.

I miss being able to text him at any given time.

I miss his hugs.

I miss feeling safe when he was around.

I miss the way he smelled.

I miss cracking jokes with him.

I miss being able to call him babe.

I miss being able to sleep at night because he said good night to me.

I miss our long facetime calls.

I fell for him and I fell hard in a short amount of time. I hate myself for it because last time I got my heart broken, I promised myself that I would not fall for someone like this ever again, but I did and the pain is unbearable. I know I shouldn't be losing sleep over dumb shit like this but I am, I wake up in the middle of the night with him on my mind. I don't hate him, I just wish nothing happened. I wish I never looked at him in a way that was more than friends. When he told me he liked me, I am not gonna lie I was the happiest I've been in so long but I wish it hasn't happened, because if it didn't happen then I would be sitting on my bed in the middle of the night thinking and having flashbacks about every good and bad moment we ever had.

I miss you so much, you idiot