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31 Days Before

31 DAYS BEFORE

Sunday morning, Noah is at Fin's so me and Liv need to have a talk about Mr. Stabler and what on earth is going on with them. I walk out of my bedroom in Liv's NYPD t-shirt and my long bed socks, making my way towards her bedroom. I open her door to find her still asleep at 10am, the lazy shit. She is on the left side of the bed facing her alarm clock, so i climb up and snake my arms around her and snuggle into her neck.

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I heard the door open and her walk over to my bed. I expected her to wake me up, instead i feel the bed dip behind me and Peyton's arms wrap around me from behind, her even breath warming my neck as i feel her snuggle into me. I smile to myself and allow myself to soften in her arms. I wait a few minutes before i rub her arm and whisper, "Morning."
"Morning Liv," she says as she slowly begins to retract her arms, "Sorry, I jus- I've just never had a mother to snuggle up to, and  um  - well i,"
I roll over to face her. "There is no need to explain, anytime you need a hug my arms are wide open." I watch a grin grace her face as we both lie back in my bed and stare at the celing.

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"So are you going to have a grown up conversation with him, or continue to be a stubborn child?" I say as we stare up at the celing. Out of the corner of my eye i see Liv bring her arm up to cover her eyes.
I roll over and snuggle into her side, "You need to talk to him," i whisper in her ear.
"I don't wanna," she says like a little child, i roll away from her rolling my eyes in the process.
"Just go out to dinner, I'll watch Noah or we can go and stay with Fin," i say while thinking it over, "but I think staying with Fin will be better cause i don't trust myself with dinner just yet."
"mmmm," she mumbles.
"So that's a yes?" she nods her head slowly with some uncertainity. "Okay call him now before you change your mind, you are going to dinner on Wednesday and no backing out, I'm going to go call Fin."

I get up and climb off the bed and walk into the kitchen leaving Liv alone to call Elliot without any interruptions.

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My phone rings on the side table as i lounge on my hotel bed, watching tv in a pair of sweatpants, with a cold beer. I answer it without looking at the caller ID, "Stabler," i say as i take a swig from my beer. Silence.

"Hello?" i ask down the phone, still no answer but i can hear someone breathing. I pull the phone from my ear to look down at the caller ID. "Liv?"
"Hey," her voice sounds so small and quiet on the other end.
"What can I do for you Sergeant?" I reply in a strong firm tone i use on the job.
"This is not a professional call Elliot." She snaps, well now I'm angry, why would she think that i would believe this to be a personal call when she has shut me out ever since i got back.
"Oh really. So you need to speak to me about something? How convienient for you." If she is going to snap at me oh honey i can bring up my anger and snap right back, i am not in the mood to be playing games.
"Oh just forget it." Her voice breaks, and when it does it snaps the protective wall surrounding my heart in half. I feel it crumble and fall as every single one of the emotions i feel for her comes rushing back at me full force. I can hear her still breathing on the other end of the phone and i know she hasn't hung up, i hear her sniffle and my heart sinks a little bit more.

"Liv babe wait?" Babe oops shouldn't have said that, hopefully she won't notice. "What can i do for you?" I say sweetly hoping to get a response out of her.
"Well, Peyton thinks that we need to have a talk," she is speaking so softly I almost don't believe it is her talking to me.
"Peyton thinks?" i tease trying not to laugh.
"Yeah, but i guess i think so too. She is just giving me the push to do it." She says sweetly a slight giggle filtering down the phone. Music to my ears.
"Okay well that sounds good I am glad. We have a lot to talk about. Like your son?"
"Yeah he is my miracle." The smile i know is gracing her face, evident in her tone as she speaks about him.
"So when does Peyton think that this talk would be a good idea?" I chuckle.
"Wednesday night, pick me up around 7?" somethings just never change.
"Sounds good, you live in the same place?" All of a sudden her breathing becomes quick and shallow, and i get an awful chill up my spine. What have i missed? "Liv?"
"um, sorry zoned out for a moment. No actually I moved about 4 and a half years ago, so i will text you my new address."
"Okay, bye Liv."
"Bye El, see you wednesday." The phone clicks signalling her hanging up the phone.

El. She said El. I flop down on the bed so I'm staring at the celing and i can't help the smile on my face. I think i just got my best friend back.

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Babe, did he call me babe. Must have been a slip of the tounge, i fall back on my bed and go back to staring at my celing, thoughts of him running through my mind. I wrap my arms around me body and grin. Then all of a sudden i hear feet take a running start towards me before jumping on the bed. I open my eyes to see Peyton standing on either side of me, her hands on the celing and a smile on her face, Her blonde ombre curls covering one of her eyes as she looks down at me.

"Well you look happy," she smirks, "Not so bad after all."
"Could have been worse," i say nonchalantly.
She giggles and throws her head back before jumping on my bed, "Well Fin said it was all goods for me and Noah to stay at his Wednesday, so -"
I sit up dead straight in bed and Peyton stops bouncing.
"P what do you mean stay?" I narrow my eyes at her.
"Well I didn't know how long you guys would be talking, or if he would come back here after dinner. So i thought it might be easier. Fin said he would drop Noah to preschool and me to the uni campus in the morning before work." I watch fear enter her eyes, "did i make a mistake?"
"No hun that was very sweet of you." She smiles and starts bouncing again.

I climb up and join in on  the fun, god i haven't been this happy in a long time. My life is finally turning out the way I wanted and i couldn't be more excited.