Never Be Alone (BoyxBoy)

Chapter One: Whats the Worst that Can Happen

Noah POV

I got home from school like usual and had my headphones one listening to Shawn Mendes..of course. haha!  I love Shawn Mendes..in more ways then one actually... yes i'm gay. No one knows. I guess i'm just worried. Of losing my friends and my parents not loving me anymore. Maybe i'm overthinking it. Like my friends aren't actually my friends if they judge me for being gay. Also, my parents always tell me they'll love me no matter what happens in this world. So i been planning on telling my parents tonight.

As i get my after school snack, and run upstairs to start my homework. I can't stay focused just overthinking about tonight. Maybe a walk ? I mean i got the most of my homework done in class anyways.. Okay yeah.

As i go downstairs i tell my mom i'm going for a quick walk. "hey mom, i'm going for a quick walk." i said. "okay honey, dinner will be ready shortly... and bundle up!" my mom replied back. "okay mom". i say as i put my big coat on. All i had was a not so thick jacket, my Shawn Mendes tour shirt, and my jeans.. Yeah not very smart for being right smack dab in the middle of winter. I put my ear buds in from my ipod and start listening to music and start pondering on how i'll tell my parents my big secret.

— Time Skip

I'm making it back to my house. The sun is starting to set. I'm walking up my front porch step. My breathing is starting to get uneasy... oh yeah.. I have anxiety and it doesn't help in times like these. I go in slowly as i start to shake more and more. "Oh, honey supers in the table!" my mom yells from the kitchen. As i put my coat on the hanger. I lay my wallet on the foyer table and make my way to the dinning room.

"hey bud, hows it going?" My dad saying eating his food. "Uhm..good. Can i talk to y'all" i say as i seat down. "Sure honey, you know you can tell is anything, right?" my mom says soothing as she seats in her seat. "Yes..i do. uh" i say starting to freak. "You didn't get a girl pregnant did you, son? We told you use protection. God i thought you would be smarter then tha-" i cut my dad off. "No, no, no, no. Its not nothing like that. Eww" i say worriedly. "Then what is it, son?" my dad says concerned and slightly annoyed i wont spit it out. What's the worst that can happen. I say to myself.

"i-i.. i'm gay.." i say going into a whisper looking down. "Honey, are you sure this isn't a pha-" "What the actual fuck. My sons a faggot." my dad yells cutting off my mom. "Now honey, Don't get carried aw-". "No, No son of my is gonna be a faggot!" My dad cuts off my mom again and gets up and it looks like it gets all it take and smacks me in the face. Then he grabs the neck of my jacket. "Dad! Wh-what are you doing" i say scared. "Hey wait a second lets talk about this" My mom says trying to calm down my mom. And i guess my little sister heard all the yelling because she came down starts. "Daddy! What are you doing to No-No" My little sister starts to cry seeing i'm hurting. "Now get out, and stay out you fucking faggot" My dad basically throws me on the ground outside the front door. Following by him slamming the door close. All i hear is my mom and sister crying and yelling at my so called dad. "Dad! Wh-what are y-you doing?!" i say trying to get back in the front door. "Get off my property, Noah. You don't live here no more. You disgrace!" My dad barked at me from inside. My only home i have known my whole life. Well, Thats the worst that can happen.

I make my way down to the side walk crying. I realize i don't have anything oh except a very this jacket and some jeans. I'm freezing and it's snowing. I go to touch my pockets. No Wallet, No phone, but my ipod and ear buds. "34% f-fuck." i curse shivering.  I said i have friends... Well i have three friends. One lives across town that goes to my school. The other is a few streets over and the last ..is online. So i got no where to go of my friend, Sammy doesn't accept me.

I make my way to my to Sammy's house. I have frozen tears on my face and i'm crying. My body is almost numb and i'm shivering so bad.
I make it up to Sammys door and it takes all in me to knock on the very cold door. Sammys opens the door. "Oh hey Noah, what are you doi- Noah! you have a bruise your right check and your shirt is stretched out. Are you okay?!" Sammys says. "N-No, M-my dad k-kicked me o-out. A-and h-hurt me-me" i say barely audible starting to cry more warm tears down my chilled red face. "Why in the hell would he do that, Noah?!" She says angrily. "be-because ii-im g-gay" i say looking down. "You're gay, Noah?" Sammy asks. "y-yes" i say looking up and noticing boxes everywhere in her house. "w-why do you h-have s-so many b-b-boxes, s-sammy?" i say worried. "oh uhm, i'm moving Noah-." i cut her off.  "Y-you are m-moving. a-a-a-and you d-didn't even t-tell me?!" i say even more upset. "i'm sorry Noah, i just didn't know how to tell you..."   "so you th-thought just l-leaving me a-alone, w-w-would be b-better?! i say so hurt right now. "hey well to be honest i don't appreciate you keeping secrets from me!" Sammy growls back. "w-what secret!". "THAT YOU A FUCKING FAGGOT!!". "wh-what?" I say officially broken. "yeah, i don't like the fact your gay, Noah.. whatever just get out of here." Sammy says slamming the door. I slowly walk back to the sidewalk. Freezing my ass off. It's almost night time. Maybe i'll go Starbucks and seat in there til they close.