Kyle,
I know you hate reading things but I thought you’d want to know this information. Hopefully this will help you understand. I don’t want you to miss me, I don’t think you will.
I know that no one really likes me. I know that I’m annoying. I know that you think I’m annoying.
I’m sorry, but I felt like I had to do this. Nothing you could have said would have changed this. I know that sounds harsh but it’s true. I had no other choice than to do this. He gave me no choice. In my dresser is another letter. Please read the whole thing.
I know this is hard for you but my thoughts were eating me alive. They haunted me. I hope this will silence them. You’re probably wonder what the thoughts were. I can’t tell you them here. Everything will be ruined.
I love you. I wish you knew exactly how much I loved you. I didn’t know how to show you that I loved you. You meant the world to me.
I don’t know how I finally went through with it, but I did. I feel free. Free from him. Free from his lurking eyes. Free from everything he told me. Free from the fear of him. Free from his threats. I know I gave him what he wanted, but everything is okay. I’m still with you. You can’t see me and you can’t physically feel me, but you can touch me. Place your hand where my head used to lie when we laid on the couch together. That’s where I am. I’m still in your heart. My love for you is still alive as long as your heart is beating.
Baby, you were the best thing that ever happened to me.
Sorry I had to go.
Love, Amber.
