Lost

-One-

"How have you been Ana?" Dr. Elaine asks as she enters the room. "Uh, i've been pretty good. The morning sickness is easing up but he is still a little kicker." I smile looking down to my bare stomach and gently brush my hand where I know my son is inside. "Are you ready for today's ultra sound?" She asks and I nod gently watching her spread the cold liquid onto my stomach.

"Alright, let's see." She says gently rubbing the probe against my skin. I smile as a healthy heartbeat comes from the speakers beside me. "You're baby boy is healthy and everything looks great. It shouldn't be much longer before he's ready to come out!" She laughs and I smile along with her. "Well, my mom and I are ready for him." I reply wiping my stomach and pulling my shirt down. "How is Elizabeth doing?" She asks turning to wash her hands. 

"She's been the best she can be. There's not much more the doctors can do and we're running out of time." I breathe and she nods sympathetically. "I'm sorry Ana, I know how much you want her to meet her grandson." She says and I wipe the lone tear that has managed to escape my eyes. 

"Everything is going to work out fine. I have to believe that." I whispered sitting up. "I know sweetie and it will get easier. Just spend as much time as you can with her, I know how much that will mean to her." I just simply nod and send her a weak smile. "Send her my best okay?" She smiles and I nod heading towards the door. "And Ana-" She starts and I turn to look at her with my eyebrow raised. "Be careful." She says softly and I smile knowing exactly what she means.

Tears start to stream down my face as I head out to my car quickly getting in before anyone notices. 'You have to calm down this isn't good for him.' I repeat in my head several times until the tears stop. Just as I was about to pull out of my parking spot my phone rings, my ringtone filling the once silence car. Seeing as it is the hospital I quickly answer putting the phone to my ear. "Hello?" I ask as soon as the phone hits my ear. "Is this Ms. Gray?" She asks frantically which causes me to worry. "Y-Yes." I reply shakily in fear that my thoughts are true. "I need you to get here as soon as possible." She says a little more calm that just a few seconds before. 

"Has something happened to my Mom?" I ask tears starting to form i my eyes for the second time today. "Come to the hospital dear. We'll talk then." She replies before she hangs up. 

Sniffling I wipe my face and head towards the hospital as fast as I can, mind whirling with all of the possibilities that could have happened. I silently pray what feels like a million times which in reality may be just a few. The drive seems to take years but I find myself finally pulling into the parking spot quickly finding a parking spot and hurrying inside. 

"I was told to come here." I say to the snobby receptionist that gives me a dirty look when I arrive at her desk. "What's your name?" She asks in a bored tone. "Ana Gray." I reply speedily and she begins tapping on her computer. I can see the white screen illuminating onto her face as her facial features change into one of sorrow. "One moment please." She says softly turning to her phone and pushing in numbers before she speaks. "Elizabeth Gray's daughter is here." She says slowly. 

"No, she's alone." She speaks again looking up towards me. After a moment she hangs up the phone and turns back towards to me. "Right this way hun." She says sweetly giving me a pity smile. I know what has happened, I just can't admit it to myself. I don't want to accept it. This can't be happening. The walk is short and soon we arrive at my mothers room that is now empty with a fresh made up bed. 

My gaze drops onto the floor as I notice her belongings placed neatly on the bed. Tears well up in my eyes for yet another time today but this time I don't stop them from coming. I let them run freely. I lost her, the only family I had in this cruel cruel world and I lost her. Slowly I get myself to walk to the bed and take her shirt into my hands. As I hold her shirt closer to me her all to familiar scent hits my nostrils causing more tears to escape my eyes. Carefully sliding onto the floor I no longer hold in my sobs as I let everything out right in the empty room all by myself on the floor. The floor of the room that once held my mom.

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Author's Note::

Hey guys! I've decided to start writing again so please let me know what you guys think!!

-Sincerely, Michelle.