Hide Me - Dolan Twins

Twenty Seven - Rum

Giuliana's POV

Recap:

The air outside was cool and dry. The wind blew across my face; it was perfectly calming. I turned my head to peer back inside. Grayson and Kimberly were leaving out the front door. Good. I couldn't stand to be within 100 feet of either of them. I sat on one of the benches and looked up. The stars always fascinated me. If star-gazing was considered a hobby then it would be mine. I let everything going on escape my mind like I always did when I watched the night sky. I could sit like this for hours on end, well I would if the golden peak of the sunrise wasn't forcing me out of my daze every time I tried to. But this time I was drawn out of my trance by the sound of footsteps. I assumed it was Grayson so I didn't pay it any mind. The footsteps continued getting closer and eventually stopped directly behind me. The presence made me feel uneasy and I quickly realized it wasn't Grayson.

"Don't move"

My heart began racing and my breathing became irregular. I recognized that voice. How could I forget it.

Flashback

"Alright head up", he said as he stood before me. I had been here for so long I started to lose track of time. Had it been weeks, months? I didn't know. Part of me didn't care anymore. Another part of me did care. That part of me wanted it all to end, wanted it all to stop.

"I said head up", he reitterated. How could I lift up my head when I was weak? I continued to let my head hang.

"Look if you want a drink I'm gonna need you to lift your head up, believe it or not I don't want to see you dead", he told me. Was that supposed to make me feel better? After a short pause he lifted up my chin and brought the water bottle up to my lips. I opened my mouth and let the cool water cascade down my throat.

"There. And look if it amounts to anything, I'm sorry"
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I continued to sit there frozen at the sound of the voice: the voice of the man who looked after me while I was kidnapped- and let me go.

"Look I'm not going to hurt you- we just- we need to talk", he spoke as he began to get closer. What the hell did he want and how did he find me?? I thought that part of my life was over and that I would never have to come in contact with them or relive it ever again. Why was he here. Why! Why! Why me!? I wasn't completely sure I even knew what was really happening. This couldn't be real. All I could think was why and how. He shouldn't have been able to find me yet here he is. He shouldn't be here at all. I was supposed to leave that behind me. Why was he here?! My heart beat began to pick up even more. My mouth became dry and my head began to spin. All the bad feelings came rushing to my mind at once. Everything I wanted to forget came back. He was speaking, but I couldn't hear him, his voice was muffled. My vision got blurry and I squinted my eyes in an effort to see. I tried to breath in and out desperate for some air. What the fuck was happening to me?

"Just breathe ok. Breathe", I hear the fog in my head. It's him talking to me.

"You're having a panic attack it's ok just calm down". His words were the only thing I could hold onto so I listened. That's when I noticed his warmth next to me and his arms wrapped around me. It's ok just calm down. I listened. My body listened. I was calm again.

"What are you doing here- what do you want from me!" I say raising my voice in frustration as I got up from beside him.

"Please just calm down-", he began while getting up and reaching out towards me.

"DON'T- tell me to calm down", I reply cutting him off and pointing at him causing him to retract his gesture. This was too much. This was too much.