Julie's P.O.V
My eyes felt like heavy weights were hanging from them, I sat up from the couch and rubbed my ginormous eyes. Zoe tiptoed fast towards me and sat down "are you feeling okay?" I smiled at her "yes" I stood up and spotted the pregnancy tests still on the floor, I picked them up and tossed them in the kitchen trash can. "Are you hungry?" Zoe quietly said as she entered the kitchen, I didn't look at her "no", I knew what she was thinking "Julie, you should really eat something.. I mea-" I cut her off and yelled "I don't need to be treated like a baby! If I'm hungry I'll eat! Okay!?" I pushed past her and sat back on the couch, placing my head in my hands. "Julie.. We just care.. I was thinking, you could maybe stay with me? It'd be like a never ending sleep over?" She tried to sound excited and happy but I could hear her nervousness. "I'm capable of taking care of myself, I know you're worried. Everyone always reacts that way. But I'm fine."
She sat down on the floor facing me, I looked up from my hands at her and she had tears in her eyes "why did you start?" She trembled through her lips "is it because of everyone saying you were chubby? Is it because of my weigh-"
"Zoe Zoe, god, no. It wasn't because of you"
"Then why? Please tell me. Joe has gone to his house he won't be back anytime soon so you don't have to worry if he hears"
"I just did"
I know that she was disappointed that I wouldn't tell her, but I didn't want to. It was personal. Nobody wants to hear of what someone with an eating disorder thinks about anyway.. It just isn't something to talk about.
An awkward silence brushed through the room until Zoe broke it "Julie please come stay with me" I nodded and went to go pack my things. I could feel her mood lighting up every time I placed something in the bags.
"It will be so fun, we will have pamper nights, lazy days, walks on the beach, movie nights... Have you seen frozen??"
I turned with my bags in my hands "I'm ready" Zoe smiled and helped with my bags
Joe's P.O.V
I couldn't stop thinking of everything that has happened within such a short time.
I was going to be a dad.. But I already was a dad. And Julie..
I laid on my bed looking up at the ceiling, my arms and legs laid out open impersonating a starfish.
My mind was a spinning roller coaster of thoughts, not only was I thinking of what had happened but what will happen, I'll have to vlog sometime, and I'll have to make videos still.. Soon there will be a baby around and how will I vlog or record then? Explaining this to millions of people wouldn't be easy..
My phone rung I quickly answered it to hear Zoe's faint voice "Julie's agreed to live with me, you don't need to worry" I sighed "good, but there's still more to worry about" it was silent for a while "yeah.. Yeah I know.. I'm sorry. Listen why don't you come over later?" I rubbed my face with my hands "yeah, okay." We hung up and I threw myself back down into my bed. And covered up with the blankets, just a short nap I told myself
Julie's P.O.V
It was almost nine o'clock Zoe was editing videos and I was just sitting on the couch watching the credits to frozen wiz by on the tv screen.
"When do you think joe will come?" Zoe looked at the clock and then at me "I'm not sure, let's eat without him" she stood up and headed to the kitchen "wanna order pizza?" I shook my head, "want to order Chinese?" I shook my head again. "Well you're eating something so you better think of something" I stood up and looked around her kitchen, everything was too much. I opened the fridge and threw out a bag of lettuce "those are for the boys" she pointed at pippin and Percy and laughed I smiled and tossed it back in the fridge. "We are getting pizza, just think of the baby, you can do it"
I wanted to scream at her for making such a decision, pizza scares me, I haven't ate it in years! But I didn't yell and I wasn't going to, I was going to push myself.
The pizza came. Zoe ate 2 slices and I ate half of 1, It was the most I could do.
Shortly soon Zoe had fallen asleep, I stood in the guest bedroom staring in the mirror, I'm going to get fat. My stomach is going to be huge, my legs are going to explode and my face is gonna stretch out. I started to tear up and ran to the bathroom. I headed to the bed again but stopped to look In the mirror once more. I want to change, I don't ever want to use two fingers as my problem solvers again.. I turned to the side and hovered my hands over my stomach "I promise you" I whispered
