Unspoken Feelings

Tell Them

*dedicated to someone I love very much, yet I've lost.

This is not a chapter, just me rambling about things that I felt important. I just want to tell whoever read this that your family is everything. Maybe I got beaten up as a kid, maybe there is a time when I was so afraid of them, or even hate them. A time when I feel so alone. Like I don't have their support at all at my decisions in life. But they are still your family. They may not know you well, but believe me, they do want to know you. 

When you go out there and love someone, got your heart broken, going back home to your family is always a choice. They may not know you well enough that you were sad, but they can still cheer you with their antics. Reminds you of a time when you were younger and was not this broken. Reminds you of your innocence, reminds you that you are loved. If you went outside and got home too late, they will be worried sick. That's why they keep calling you. Maybe you'll feel annoyed. Maybe you'll think: "They are so goddamn overprotective. I'm so tired of answering them. I'll just ignore and then tell them when I'm on my way home" But what they did, is because of love.

I know not all family are like this. But family is not as small as just your parents or siblings. Your closest friend, your best friend, someone that will always try to make you smile. Be easygoing and light. Someone you've shared laughter with, but also tears. They are family. That is the kind of people you'd want to keep in your life. The kind that always know hot to make you small, to make you feel like you're worth it. Someone who will miss you even though you were gone just for a few hours. Who would've waited for you, no matter how long it takes for you to come back. That is love. 

If you found someone out there, a romantic spouse, a lover, etc. Maybe you'll think they are the one. Maybe you'll be so attached to them, you'll think: "I can't imagine my life without this person. I love him/her so much" Well it can be wrong. You might get your heart totally shattered but you'll still have your family to get back to. They who have build you, see you grow to be who you are now, they are the one they would be able to mend you. They are the one who would wake you, who would stay and get your pieces back together. 

But sometimes.. sometimes people doesn't realize that. Not until they've lost it. And then it'll be too late. 

Never ignore your family or someone you love. If you lost contact, try to find a way to contact them. Don't say "oh I'll do that later, it's okay" because it's not okay. You don't know when you'll ran out of time. One of them could've just.. died. Or sick. Or.. I don't know. Something could've happen. Tell them, as much as you can, how you love them. You won't regret it, trust me. Don't wait until something happens. 

I love you. I'm sorry I didn't say that to you when you were alive. I'm sorry I haven't been the best friend. You are loved, my friend. You are loved. And I will always remember you.