back to you - zach herron

one

emma's pov

recently i've been thinking about my relationship with zach a lot. everything that's happened between us always means a lot to me. especially when he asked me out.
to catch you up to speed, how it all started was on valentines day when he asked me out. it was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for me, considering all my exes used me.
he always treated me like him princess, but i always had a feeling he liked ash more than me. zach and ash sort of had a thing for each other a few months before me and zach dated. ash would intentionally do things in front of me to make me jealous, since of course she hates me. i'm used to it by now. i'm the under dog most of the time. zach is so popular, as well as ash. i don't know why he dated me instead of her.

me and zach's relationship started particularly normal, but these last few months it been getting tough. i've felt pressured in the relationship, because zach wants to get the most of if the last few weeks we have together until he goes on tour. but i'm just not too sure. i know that relationships that move too fast never end well.
i really do like zach but i question us a lot, more than i think i should. it's just with everything going on in our relationship right now makes it so difficult to date him. i really overthink too much so i think i'll just head to bed now.

next day

i woke up feeling a bit better than i did last night during the rant in my thoughts. days like yesterday happen so often, and it get difficult with anxiety. i get out of bed to brush my teeth and get changed, ready for school. today is a b day, meaning the second half of my classes. i have a class with zach today, and i think i might have to let him know how i'm feeling right now. obviously in a way to keep our relationship on good terms.

as the time passes my class with zach approaches. i walk through the door, i'm late as always, as i get greeted by a grumpy history teacher. as he is giving me a lecture i noticed that zach is sitting next to ash, where i usually sit. my heart shatters. he looks really happy. he's smiling at her. i know he was never over her.
"emma? are you okay?" my history teacher says as he tries to get my attention. zach and ash were still talking as i replied "i need to see the nurse". i run out of the class to the nurses office. mrs. kelly knows me pretty well at this point, considering i always am in here. i'm glad mrs. k is such a great nurse, she gives great advice too.
"what's wrong kiddo?" mrs. k asks as i walk in. "not the usual, it's my boyfriend" i say, "he's talking with his ex, i walked in to class seeing that. it hurt" mrs k replies saying "it's okay em, trust me we've all been through it. talk to him, make sure you're both aware of everything happening in the relationship. i've said it before, and i'll say it a million times again, communication is key in a relationship". "wow thanks mrs, I'll try talking to zach after school. i'm still kind of upset tho" i say "you should get to your next class, i'm always here tho" mrs. k replied as i walked out the door.

that's the end of the first chapter!! i hope you guys like it as much as i do. i would like to give you guys some backstory on this book. i promise it won't be boring. this book is based off something similar i've went through. it's mixed with my own experience, some situations from friends, and a lot of other random stuff i had to add into the book to actually make it not only about my story, but fit zachs lifestyle as well. for example, the tour part wasn't from mine or friends experience, it was just added because zach frequently does tour with his band :)
anyways i'm so excited for this book, and so happy with the outcome of it so far! lmk what you guys think so far.