Sounds of Music ( The Big Dream )

Chapter 3 - Nice meeting you

Cassie's POV

Waaaaaahh ! Ano bang kakantahin ko? Kanina pa ako nakaharap sa songbook ko pero ni isa wala akung magustuhan. Any suggestions? -.-

Bago ko pa ma punit ang songbook, kinuha ko nalang ang guitar ko. I sat comfortably on my sofa and started strumming it when I noticed the christmas ball na bigay sa akin ni Tristan last christmas. Ang saya ko noong mga panahon na iyon. Mga panahong wala pang malisya sa akin ang lahat. Mga panahong magkasama kami, nagkwekwentuhan, namamasyal, nagbibiruan  at kung ano-ano pa. Bakit ba kasi kailangan pang umabot sa ganito? Na mahalin kita Tristan?

Hindi ko namalayan na tumulo na ang luha ko.

NOW PLAYING: Back To December By Taylor Swift

 I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Staying up, playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side

And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days

When fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time, all the time...

I stopped strumming my guitar and wiped my tears. This is B*llshit! I hate this feeling. I hate this. I hate everything! How long will ill be like this? Forever? Arghh. Parang ngayon palang mamamatay na ako sa kaiisip kung ano ang gagawin. Kaya ko bang lokuhin ang sarili ko at itago ang nararamdaman ko kung ibabalik ko sa normal ang lahat?

Hay naku! Ewan ko. I dont know... I really dont know...

Then I start browsing my laptop to search new songs...

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Skip's POV

Tahimik lang kami sa loob ng sasakyan ni Dad. He volunteered to drive since wala ako sa mood at puyat pa ako.

Malapit lang naman ang Silent sa bahay. I think 30mins drive. Ewan basta malapit lang.

Mamaya pang alas dos ang audition At 11am pa lang. Actually, apat lang ang pagpipilian namin. As far as I know, family friends namin ang tatlo at hindi ko kilala ang isa. We need to be early daw kasi may aasikasuhin daw siya like hello? I don't care mas gugustuhin ko pang matulog kesa atupagin ang walang kwentang bagay na ito.

So basically, pag dating namin doon magkukulong yan sa office niya at ako naman? Ahah! Matutulog nalang ako. Good Idea.

"What are you thinking?" Out of nowhere nagsalita si Dad. Tiningnan ko lang siya.

"Stop staring Skip, just tell me" he added habang naka focus ang attention niya sa daan.

Ako naman, ibinalik ko nalang sa labas ang tingin ko. Wala akong planong makipag-usap sa kanya. Pissed pa ako.

He let a deep sighed "Im sorry son, if I brought back the topic earlier about her..." He paused and he continued "Mali ka ng sinabi mong hindi ko naiintindihan ang naramdaman mo ng iwan ka niya..."

Automatically napalingon ako sa kanya. He seemed so serious at mababakas mo sa mukha niya ang sakit? I don't know pero parang nalungkot siya bigla. What is he trying to say? Pareho rin ba kaming naiwan? Si mom ba ang tinutukoy niya?

"Just don't forget, nandito lang ako sa tabi mo Skip, you can tell me anything you want, kung galit ka, masaya ka, malungkot o kung ano pa ang nararamdaman mo. Ayaw kung sinasarili mo ang nararamdaman mo. Promise, I will listen and understand you." - Dad

For the first time in forever, nawalan ako ng sasabihin. Seriously, si Dad ba itong kausap ko? Does he really care for me?

"You don't have to say anything, just keep that in your mind, youre not alone" He looked at me for a second and smiled. Ako naman? Speechless lang. The next thing I knew papasok na kami sa compound ng Silent.

Ipinark muna niya ang kotse and then we went out.

"May aasikasuhin lang ako sa office, kung may kailangan ka kumatok ka lang, okey? - Casual na sabi ni Dad. Tumango nalang ako.

Nandito ako sa lobby ng Silent. Hindi ito ang unang beses na nakapunta ako dito. Halos araw-araw akung nandito kasi nandito rin siya. Ang babaeng pag-aalayan ko ng lahat. Umopo ako sa couch na nandoon. Sa tuwing napapadpad ako dito bumabalik lahat ng saya, sakit at poot sa puso ko. Kaya ng magdesisyun siyang na umalis at iwan ako, hindi na ako pumupunta dito.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako.

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A/N Hehe pasensya na boring masyado. Gusto ko lang talagang mag update. Promise sa susunod na update mataas at hindi na boring. Till next time readers. At saka, malapit ko nang ipublish ang isa kung story. Sana abangan at suportahan niyo :)

Chapter 4, 5, 6 and 7 is coming.

Xoxo

Msp<3