J and her shattered, somewhat functional, heart.

J's Story

J's Story: A tale of he who shall, literally, not be named.

I text him, and you know what right then and there I should have know that this boy was going to break my heart into a million pieces, my life would suck, friends aren't even friends anymore and most of all, every memory from the past year that I think about with him, they start happy at first but then a wave of sadness and all of the sudden one of my favorite memories is blue. In fact everything is blue. In these moments I realize that I don't want to feel anything and I definitely don't want to be around anyone. You see it all started a year ago. I had just recently broken up with a boyfriend, which I realize we weren't meant to be, me still being me cried. After a few days and a whole tub of ice cream, I regained my happy self. I then realized that I had a crush on another guy, he was taller then me, which the other one lacked, and he also was very cute. Anyways I decided to go out of my way and out of my comfort zone and actually be myself around him. Which kinda worked. He always said the cheesiest pick ups lines, but they made me smile. One he used was "is there something in your eye?" To which I would say "no." He would then say " yes there is, it's a sparkle!" He also had some weird ones. Anyways we had gotten along then finally one day he jokingly asks for my phone number. I said sure. I then decided that I should tell him I liked him. So I did, and I was turned down. Five months later after bad texting back on his line and ignoring me completely, I get a call from my friend, on his phone. I was weirded out  by this until she told me to come to the park and we will go return his phone. So I went, and all of the sudden I get ambushed by him. It was a thing to get me to come to the park so he can officially ask me out. To which I said yes, even though he put me in the friend zone for 5 months. Anyways I had made the best memories with him...