New Beginning || JJK

chapter 17 ,,Feelings"

Jungkook's pov
,,This can't be true" Y/N said out of nowhere. Everyone looked at her with a worried expression.
,,Are you okay?" I asked and she became red... gosh she's so cute when she blushes...
,,Oh ehm.. I just remembered that tomorrow is my sisters birthday" she told us and turned around. With her eyes never leaving the ground I shyly faced Jimin and walked over to him.
,,Bro. I need to talk to you right now" I said slightly panicking.
He nodded and asked me what's wrong.
,,W-well... Y/N. She's really special and i don't know if I'm falling for her or something but I think.. it might be possible that I'm a bit jealous.." I explained while looking at the ground to avoid eye contact with Jimin.
,,Oh well bro. Find out then" he smiled and looked at me. I raised my head and saw him smiling.
,,I think she likes you" suddenly his smile turned into a smirk and I just walked away.

I went into the living room and told them that I'm going for a walk.
,,Wait I'm coming with you" I heard a voice call.  I turned around to see Y/N. My heart began to beat extremely fast.
I nodded and we went outside.
It was very silent between us.
,,So... uhm Y/N..." I started she looked at the ground focusing on her feet.
,,Y/N.. is everything okay?" I asked her once again.
,,Yeah.. everything is fine" she  whispered never raising her head.
I was seriously confused what's going on...
Suddenly her phone rang.
She checked the caller ID and didn't know the number she answered.
,,H-hello?"
,,Y/N IS THAT YOU MY LOVE" I heard a male voice scream.
,,No... it's not Y/N" She answered as her legs started to tremble and I noticed that she was fighting aginst tears.
,,Who is it Y/N" I asked her very worried.
,,Y/N. I know that it's you please. Tell me where you are."
I looked at her very confused because I wasn't understanding what was going on.
,,I'm sorry. Wrong number" she said quietly as she hang up.
,,Are you fine?" I asked her very worried. She began to cry and I became panic. Suddenly she let herself fall on the floor because her legs gave up. I got on my knees to confort her and hugged her.

,,who was it Y/N" I whispered to her....
,,I-it was M-Mark" she tried to explain with her cracking voice.
,,Who is-"
,,My ex..." she interrupted me.
I became angry. Very angry.  I hugged her tightly and she raised her head.
I looked into her puffy, hazel eyes and noticed how beautiful she looked.

Nobody's pov
,,Why are you staring?" Y/N questioned feeling awkward looking at him for so long.
,,o-oh eh nothing." He replied. Their faces were only inches away as they admired each others eyes.
Y/N blushed and wanted to break the eye contact but she couldn't. She was lost in his eyes.

Y/N pov
He's so close... what should I do?
My heart started beating uncontrollably and I felt the heat in my cheeks.
He really is someone special...
I thought as I admired him.
,,J-Jungkook" I spoke out softly.
That brought him back to reality.
He stood up and helped me up.
,,Thanks" I said and he nodded.
,,What happend between Mark and you?" he said as he looked straight into my eyes making my heart melt.
,,I-its no longer important" I spoke out.
,,if it destroys you... it must be important." He said and I broke the eye contact.
,,He cheated Jungkook... and he hit me with a car... he tried to hide it.. he.. he put my life in danger..." I cried out.
Trying to cover my face with my hands he took them in his.
,,Y/N. You deserve better. Listen.  He's a jerk for what he has done okay? But don't let that ruin your life. Now you have me. I mean me, bts and golden Harmony..." he told me quite nervous.
I nodded as he still held my hands...
Million thoughts were in my head.
Million thoughts were killing me slowly.
And billion feelings were confusing me.. what is wrong with me... do i still have feelings for Mark?  Am I falling for Jungkook? Why me...
,,Y/N... do you still have feelings for him" he questioned me looking into my eyes and holding my hands in his...
With this question my mind went blank and I lost it.

Jungkook's pov.
,,Three words, eight letters.
I love him or I hate him... I guess I feel both... these are feelings no one wants to feel.." she explained as she broke the eye contact again.
,,No matter what. I will be there for you. Understood?"  She nodded and I continued ,,Let's go back Y/N. You should rest a bit" I whispered as we walked back to the dorm.
On our way back so many questions filled my head.

I think I have feelings for her...
But...
You can't follow your heart when it's more confused than your head.

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Heyyyyy y'all.
This was my chapter.
So basically shit is getting real now. I don't know when I will publish the next chapter,  because Christmas vacation are going to start tomorrow and in these 3 weeks I want to rest since the school year started very bad for me.
I just need to clear my mind a bit and get better. I will try my best to upload chapters.
But here is a little spoiler for chapter 18. It will be about Mark's pov. Hehe..
I hope you're doing well and thank you for supporting me.
Stay healthy and never stop smiling. I purple you.
- Author-nim 💜