lost

Past

Last year in 8th grade, things seem to be intense for me. There would be lots of drama and fights with my group of friends with the other girls and honestly the reason for those fights are stupid now that I look back to those memories. I would always be the one being pushed over by my friends and they would make me stand up for them, only to be receiving bruises from our rivals. They'll just watch me in agony. I did try to defend myself in those fights and I did manage to atleast give them those blows.

I would always be the one blamed and my other friends wouldn't care any less. Everyone would be saying "Luna did iiiiiiiit" or "wow she really likes looking for trouble, god such a bitch." When I try explaining to the teachers about everything, they wouldn't believe me at all; not one bit. Everyone has known me to be the trouble maker, including the teachers. I would always get in trouble for everything... it's as if no one believes me at all. Teachers didn't want to hear my ''excuses'' and my friends will always use me like a "shield." Teachers were crap anyway. They hardly taught us well and and they suck at managing students and their behaviour. They are also the reason why there's lot of fights and drama. My school was terrible; it felt like prison. They did a good job simulating prison if that's what they were aiming for. I'm still mad at Ms. Smith. I would do all of my work and turn it in on time and not to mention answering things correctly, only to be receiving an F.

8th grade was a burden for me and I didn't know why. I've been involved in drama and neglacted by the teachers. My peers did tease me for always getting in trouble too. Did I mention they'll always attempt to ruin my work and rip my hw. Well yes they did and when they try to take my work and rip it up and I attempt to take it back, they'll always yell out to the teacher that I'm trying to rip THEIR work and the teachers again, won't believe to what I have to say or even investigate at all.

I don't get it, I am an academic student besides that F but in my school, being academic won't give u recognition, it didn't even matter at all. Mostly everyone sucked. This wouldn't make me a bad person right? I did manage to get good grades, does that mean I'm bad? My friends constantly use me to stand up for them like everyday and I get beat up by my rivals yet I try to atleast defend myself. Am I a bad person? Getting into fights against my will, am I bad? What makes me bad if I am bad? I'm wondering this. I don't know myself well at this point; I feel lost now... like I'm over whelmed with so many things that I basically have no words to describe them.

Now that I'm looking back at things I'm starting to see that those bitches are nothing but fakes. They were never my friends and I was so blind to see that. Now I feel stupid but at the same time relieved that I was finally able to see that. Hopefully everything changes from now on; I can't wait wait to see the light of things! But at the same time I shouldn't keep my hopes up. Tomorrow I'll start my first day of highschool.

It'll be a new expierence but what type will it be?

Hey this is my first chapter of my first story! Hopefully u guys enjoyed "past" chapter one of "Lost." Soon I'll publish more chapters and I'll like to see your guys' feedback about it. So stay tuned everyone :D

Btw I'll work on the book cover soon but for now writing and quality of writing matters right? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯