heartbreak, when a heartbroken guy is trying to move on. he stays home. he binge watches his favourite tv shows. maybe even wonder why him and his ex broke up. pitying himself. in no mood to party or go out, when his best mate jack johnson, drags hi...
i needed this time away. things in los angeles were just too much to handle. i know i shouldn't be running away from all my problems, but it just seemed so easy. on the third day of our stay here in the city of love, i met someone. his name is benji, he was visiting from his hometown in the netherlands. he was on one of the tours that we were on and we immediately clicked after first meeting. he took me on our first date to the cafe right next to the eiffel tower, it was something else. some fans were saying it was too soon to move on from jack, but they say nothing about the fact he was the one who moved on faster than me, he cheated on me with the one girl i hoped he wouldn't. madison was someone i grew to trust, so many people told me not too that she had her own motives in mind but i trusted in her anyway, and boy i should of listened. benji and his friends followed us on our journey to venice, which was the last stop before we all had to go back home. this is when benji asked me to become his girlfriend, officially and of course i said yes, not thinking about the repercussions, as he does live on the opposite end of the world to where i was.
now we, meaning kels, stasis, kendall, kylie and benji were on the 6 am flight back to lax airport. i was leaning my head on benji's shoulder, nuzzling into the crook of his neck, he smelt so good of vanilla. he places a gentle kiss on my forehead as i slowly drift off to sleep, sleeping for the next 15 hour flight, waking up occasionally for snacks and the bathroom.
johnson and sammy picked us all up from the airport, sammy taking stassie, kylie and kendall. kels, benji and i followed johnson. kels and johnson, were sat in the front seat and benji and i in the back.
"how was europe for you bels, i mean surely good you have come home with a new beau" johnson teased and i giggle and rolled my eyes, "yes very good and i am very lucky!"
"jack is a mess, he hasn't left the house since you embarked on your journey" he muttered and i sighed, frankly i didn't want to hear about jack, i do care for him but i couldn't help the feelings of distaste when hearing his name. "johnson, can we not talk about jack, i don't really want to hear it, i have been hurt by him enough" i frustratedly replied looking out the car window, ignoring the fact that benji had my hands in his rubbing soothing circles to try calm me down.
"fine, just know he misses you and you guys really need to speak in person, even if it is just to tell him that you are happy with benji. give each other the closure you both deserve."
i hate that johnson was right, he was so wise, i loved and hated that about him. i guess the next time i see gilinsky we will talk, where i finally end everything and say goodbye to our relationship. johnson dropped myself and benji off at the apartment i share with kels, but she says she wants to go hang out with johnson a little more and catch up. i slowly unlock the door, opening up to a clean apartment, i switch the light on, "sorry about that, johnson is his best friend and he is also mine, i didn't know he was going to tell me all that, if you don't want me to talk to him i won't" i apologise wrapping my arms around his neck, and his arms go to my waist, "it's ok baby, no i agree with johnson, you both need closure, so next time you see him you should talk with him" he says as he pulls me in for a kiss. i was finally at peace and happiness with benji, lets hope my problems in los angeles don't ruin this for me.
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"good to be home in my bed"
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jack: he's on my side of the bed :(
bella: it's not yours anymore, jack please can you just be happy for me
jack: how can I be happy for you when I myself Is not even happy
your cuddling and dating a new guy
and I am still here wishing for another chance
bella: how many chances do I need to give you to break my heart?
