Danny’s point of view.
We just played the last show of this tour. We all decided to go to the bard and get drunk. We walked to the bar, and I walked next to Ben. We talked and laughed a little. It makes me happy to see him smile. When we got to the bar Ben and I ordered some drinks. Cam and James were sitting in a corner together and Sam disappeared into the many people. Me and Ben had fun and after an hour or something I started to feel a little tipsy. A girl came up to us and said “You should make Brusnop real.” I laughed but Ben blushed. Why did he blush? She was just a fangirl who wanted some Brusnop. “Yeah we should.” I said and I kissed Ben on the lips. He pulled back and ran away out of the bar. “Ben!?” I yelled. I jumped of my stool and ran out of the bar. Fuck! I couldn’t see him anymore. Ben disappeared in to the darkness. Why did he leave? I just gave him a kiss no big deal. But what if it was a big deal to him? Fuck I have to find him. I started searching around the bar, but I couldn’t find him anywhere near. After a few hours I walked past a forest. He might be in there. “Ben!?” I yelled. I didn’t hear anything. After walking around for a while I heard someone sobbing. I walked towards the sound. I couldn’t really see much though. “Ben? Is that you?” “Go a- away.” He whispered. “No,” I sat down next to him and took my phone for some light. I saw blood dripping of his sleeve. “Ben what the fuck did you do!?” I yelled at him. “Danny please leave me alone.” He said. I took my scarf of and tied it around his sleeve to stop the bleeding. “Ben, did you do this to yourself?” I asked. He didn’t answer, so I took it as a yes. “Why Ben?” “I- I don’t- I can’t-” He tried to tell me but it made him cry more and more. I felt him shivering, he must be cold. I took my vest off and put it around him. “Ben, please come with me to the hotel?” I stood up and raised out my hand, waiting for him to take it. He took my hand and I pulled him back on his feet. I wrapped my arm around his waist and we started walking to our hotel.
My phone vibrated, Cam was calling me. I answered my phone. “Hey,” “Danny, where the fuck are you guys?” He sounded worried. “We’re on our way to the hotel, it’s okay Cam.” “Oh, I thought you were arrested or something, but what’s wrong?” “There’s something with Ben, I don’t know what yet, but he’s in good hands now so don’t worry.” “Okay, we’ll see you in a few then, and take care of Ben.” “I will, bye.” I hung up. “Hang on Ben, we’re almost there.” I said a little scared seeing my best friend almost pass out.
We arrived at the hotel, walked to our apartment to a bedroom and I sat Ben on the bed. I put on the light. There is so much more blood than I could see at the forest. “Ben, look at all that blood! That’s not good.” I got the first aid kit out of the bathroom and sat down on the bed next to Ben. I took my scarf of his sleeve and it started bleeding again. “Damn it Ben, why did you have to do that?” I took a cloth and putted some wound cleaning stuff on it. I patted it on his wounds. “Ouch fuck!” He yelled. “I’m sorry Benji, but I have to clean this, now tell me what’s wrong, I hate seeing you like this.” I applied a bandage and grabbed Ben’s face, making him look at me. “Ben, please tell me why?” He looked down. “Ben please? I wanna help.” I continued. He looked at me and started sobbing again. “I- I want to te- tell you b- but I” He started crying. He laid down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. “I can’t tell you Danny.” He cried. I saw him all shivering. I took the blanket and put it over him. I sat down on the edge of the bed, facing him. “Ben,” I started “Please tell me what’s wrong? I can’t see you like this.” I felt the tears coming up in my eyes. “I- I love you Ben. I hate seeing you like this. Please tell me what’s wrong.” A tear rolled down my cheek. Ben saw it and sat up straight now. “Dan, are you- is that a tear?” “Yes Ben, I care about you I don’t want you to hurt yourself.” I sobbed. He pulled me into a hug and laid back down. I held him tightly, we just laid there, sobbing in each other’s arms.
“The reason why I left the bar is because you kissed me. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t mind it, but it’s just that you kissed me for fun, and to me it’s a lot more than fun, I- I- Danny, I’m in love with you.” Ben whispered suddenly as he held me tighter. He let go off me to let me get off and go away. But I didn’t let go of him. I couldn’t, I didn’t want to. I cupped his face. “Ben. What do you think it meant to me?” I asked him. “Just, nothing, just a joke for that girl.” He answered. “If it wouldn’t mean anything to me, I wouldn’t have kissed you in the first place Ben.” “So it did mean something to you?” “Yes but I just had to hide it.” “Why did you hide it?” “Because I didn’t know you loved me back. I knew when I first saw you I liked you.” I kissed him again. This time he didn’t pull away, not that he could because I was on top of him. When I pulled away it didn’t took long for Ben to realize that I like him too and he crashed our lips together again. I pulled back again “I- I love you Ben, I really do.” I said and kissed his cheek. “Will you cuddle with me?” He asked blushing. I chuckled at that cute face. “Of course I will babe.” I crawled under the blanket next to him. “I’m sorry Dan.” He whispered. I wrapped my arms around him and he laid his head on my chest. “Sorry for what?” I asked. “For cutting myself.” He started sobbing again. “It’s okay Benji, It’s okay.” I whispered in his ear. “Well it’s not okay, but I forgive you. Because you told me everything. And because you’re cute.” We both chuckled. “Not because you love me you cunt?” He asked smiling. “And because I love you. But I’m not a cunt!” “No, I know, you’re my boyfriend.” He blushed. I am his boyfriend? Damn, I didn’t know that, but it makes me very happy. “Yes, I am your boyfriend, problems with that Benji?” I chuckled back. “No, not at all.” He kissed my cheek. “But just, don’t hurt yourself anymore please.” “No I won’t, I have you now, no reason to get hurt anymore.” I pulled him on top off me and kissed his fore head, his cheek, his nose, his lips. It felt good to feel him smile against my lips. My tongue started playing with his lip rings, and he opened his mouth a little, I felt his tongue against mine again and I felt the butterflies in my stomach going crazy. “Dan, is that your phone going off?” Ben asked suddenly. Yeah of course, great, my phone goes off when I’m busy. I thought about just letting it ringing but then I realized it could be Cam.I answered “Hello?” “Hey, it’s Cam, we’re almost at the hotel, is Ben doing alright?” “Yeah Ben is feeling amazing.” “Uh, okay, well see you in a minute then.” “Okay bye.” “Bye.” I threw my phone on the bed. “Ben, the lads are almost home, what are we gonna do?” “Well we can just stay here and let them find us?” He chuckled. “We could do that.” I smiled as I crawled on top of him again. Our faces were so close right now, we were both smiling. Ben kissed me and bit my lip when he pulled back.
“You guys we’re back!” I heard James yelling. Ben and I both started to chuckle. “We’re in one of the bedrooms.” He yelled back. I laid down next to him and gave him a little kiss on his cheek before the door opened. “What are you guys doing?” Sam asked confused. “Danny is my boyfriend.” Ben smiled. “Awe, really?” Cam asked. “Yeah,” I answered and kissed Ben’s lips. They just stood there in the doorpost, looking at me and Ben. “Cool.” Sam said. We all laughed. “I got to get used to this man” James said. “Well, we will leave you guys alone then.” Cam said with a wink. They went back to the living room and we heard them talk about us and play some games. As soon as I looked Ben in the eyes we both started to chuckle again. We started kissing again, passionate. Everything was just perfect right now. We fell asleep in each other’s arms.
