-Tzuyu-
I want to confess, I want her to be mine, I want to tell the world — my world that I love her. That I love Minatozaki Sana but the thing is, she hates homosexuals. She told me that every time she saw a certain couple she always feel like throwing up, she feel disgusted and in that I'm hopeless.
She's my best friend, as much as I don't want to ruin the friendship we had hence my heart always explodes every time she'll cling on me, care for me and give kisses on my reddened cheeks. But then ended up in the corner looking for the missing piece of my heart whenever I hear her talking about her boyfriend, that apparently a new one.
Countless boyfriend she had in every month, I'm wondering if one of them already got her first, not the kiss coz I think every boyfriend had kissed her already. She's a type of a bad girl yet a very soft one. That's why no matter how I accept the fact that I'm only a best friend, still hurts.
"Oh Tzuyu, from a suitor? Yiee~"
I startled when Sana eonni suddenly popped in front of me while pointingbat the rose with a tease. I smiled, this supposed to be yours eonni but I'm afraid you'll hate me at the end.
"Auh. Mmm... Y-yes. But I don't like roses. " I said and added a giggle. She huffed her lips with her teasing eyes, augh! I know you'll shut up if I'll tell you this is for you. Gosh, this stressing me out.
I gestured her to sit beside me that she immediately obliged and hugged me sideways and I know where this is going.
"I'll be going on a date with Eunwoo, Tzuya. I'm sorry I can't go with you. "
If only I could say no, I will definitely not let you go. But I'm only your bestfriend nothing more and probably less. I nodded but I didnt let her see that I feel sad. This is not new anyways.
Not long enough, her boyfriend came and they bid goodbye with a smile on their faces. I'm so damn jealous, but who am I again?
Yeah, a bestfriend.
I timidly walked to our shared apartment while sulking. Well, this is me.
"For why on earth she was born to hate homosexuals. And I also hate myself for being one. I shouldn't feel this, this is totally wrong. "
I said not minding the road I'm in. Not minding the peoples stares until I finally get into a bus. I sat beside the window and just a wishful thinker I am, my hopes raised in my own imaginations.
I wish I am a guy...
A guy who can love and will be loved by Sana. I sighed and my eyes caught an old lady standing while holding a basket, then I looked around seeing some guys ignoring the old lady. I stand up and offer my seat to her that she immediately turned back with a smile.
"Thank you so much beautiful lady. " She said and I helped her to sit. Halfway in my own silence someone patted my back that causing me to turn around, there's a man standing up and gesture me to sit down.
Wow!
That's all I can say in my mind. He'll offer me a sit while he will just let the old lady stands all the way to her destination? Argh, that's why I hate guys.
"Auh! No thanks. "
I said and turn away from him. I heard him sighed and didnt bother to ask again which I'm greatly relieved of. The bus stops and the old lady stood up, maybe she's on her street now. I helped her again until she finally got down and I'm about to go back when she suddenly pulled my hand.
"Illic 'a pulchritudo in utrem, velit justo. "
(There's a beauty in a bottle, just wish)
