"Baliw si Mommy noon, nabaliw ako dahil noong bata ako nakidnap ako kasama ang kapatid ko" kwento ko sa anak ko
Kinukwento ko sakanya ang lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko kasi ang anak ko lang ang nakakapag pagaan ng nararamdaman ko kahit wala pa itong muwang
"My sister was killed baby, and I lived in a prison for almost a year, kung saan kinulong lang nila ako, pinapakain ako pero iyon lang" I smiled bitterly while picturing the past
"At nasa tabi ko lang ang bangkay ni ate noon sa loob nang kwartong iyon, natagpuan kami noon at ang kwento ni Lola mo ilang taon daw akong hindi nagsalita, tapos tumakas daw ako sa bahay noon dahil nalaman ko ang rason kung bakit ako nakidnap, it was a kidnap for ransom and ayaw ko lang ulit maulit dahil ayaw kong ibagsak ang kompanya nila Daddy noon, they love their company, bunga iyon ng hardwork nila at ayaw kong ako ang maging rason kung bakit kailangan nilang isakripisyo iyon, that was the reason why I left, I was just seventeen that time, with the money I have in my account, bumili ako ng bahay noon at nagtayo ng sariling coffee shop in an island" I chuckled
"Imagine baby, kahit baliw si Mommy noon matalino parin" a tear escaped from my eye while looking at my baby girl
"A year after I met your Daddy, I fell for him kahit na baliw ako, I guess hindi natuturuan ang puso, we got engaged, pero one time dinalaw ako ni Mommy, she told me I needed fixing, she helped me realise I was broken, I was 21 that time"
"Ayaw kong pati si Daddy mo madurog ko noon, so without any words I left his house, I left our home and with the help of my cousin, iyong Tita mong psychiatrist na ang ganda, I get to comprehend things, but really, God is the only one who actually fixed and will forever fix me"
"At nag aral ako, your Daddy's a firefighter so I wanted to be one para naman kahit wala siya noon nung nag aaral at train ako I can still feel his presence because he loved his job"
I looked at my baby, I remember Dark wanting a baby back then but I was too crazy, I even said babies are monsters and all that
He was shocked but took it all as a joke, I don't know why, and he said he respects my decision and he thought maybe I'm not yet ready that's why I don't want to have a baby yet
During my sessions with my cousin, I learned that I hate kids, I can even harm them
I was also suicidal back then
Siguro kung baliw pa ako ngayon baka nasaktan ko na ang anak ko, and I will not forgive myself kapag nangyari iyon
"Sorry baby ha, baliw si Mommy noon kaya nasira ko relasyon namin ni Daddy mo, kung hindi siguro sana may kinikilala kang Daddy ngayon"
Hiniga ko ulit siya ng makatulog siya saka ako tumingala para tumigil na ang mga luha ko
"Sissy" I heard Courtney's voice
Lumapit siya saakin saka ako niyakap
"Stop crying you're becoming an ugly duckling, wala akong kapatid na ugly" she said making me burst out into laughter
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Chances (COMPLETED FILIPINO)#RymSeries
RomanceLANGUAGE USED: ENGLISH/FILIPINO "Mahal mo ako" taas noong sabi ko habang nakatitig sa mata niya "You're wrong Hazey, it's your body that I missed" "It's not just my body that you missed, it's me" I pointed out I can feel it, he loves me, he still l...
