a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 15-louis

Niall's POV

"Robin, do you want to go to the mall or something?" I asked, breaking away from the kiss, as my phone rang.

She nodded and told me she was going to the restroom before we left.

After she left i grabbed my phone and checked out my messages.

*i hope your not with her! Hillary told me. If i were you I'd definitely think more rationally about my decisions, because you actions have consequences niall i hope you know that and if you get to close, i promise you i will do something about it,because when we started this u Made a promise, and now you have to keep that promise, just think about it, and decide carefully, or i will be forced to decide for you.

-lou*

I quickly shut the screen off and slid it into my pocket as robin left the restroom and emerged the table, letting louis words sink in.

"Hey you ready to get outa here?" I asked her, grabbing her hand on mine and swinging it back and forth slightly.

"Uh yeah, but do you think we could just go somewhere quiet, like a park, or something?" She asked, taking her lip between her teeth and rubbing her arm slowly, looking around and down at her phone.

I think i missed something in the last two minutes she was. The restroom, i know i did, she all of a sudden seemed worried.

"Uh yeah whatever you want, but please tell me what's wrong," i told her, grabbing her hand.

"W-what do you m-mean I'm fine" she stopped, looking down at her phone as it beeped and continuing to look around the room frantically.

"Really," she said looking down at the ground instead of me.

I got up and pulled her to me, enveloping her into a hug that she clearly needed because she hugged me back, tightly holding onto me.

"C'mon lets get out of here,'' i whispered to her, pulling her gently out the door.

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We arrived at a park and robin hadn't said a word to me, she seemed so distracted the whole time.

She just stared down at the ground, letting me plead her to wherever it was i was going.

"Robin what's wrong darlin?" I asked, sitting down on a bench next to her as she stared at her phone screen as if she were expecting a call or text.

"Niall, i don't understand how people can be so cruel to another human being, and wake up every morning and not pay any price, feel no guilt." She paused, opening her mouth to continue but shutting it.

"I just don't understand how people can ever treat another person that way," she laughed, but it was a sad, hurt laugh.

"Robin I'll never understand it either, i mean how does someone get joy out of hurting someone else to a point where they fear that the only way out is to end it." I looked at the ground, mimicking her actions.

"To end their life. "

Who am i to talk though, I'm being so hypocritical right now i thought to myself.

"Niall i just-" she stopped, finally looking up, squeezing my hand so tightly it hurt, then suddenly letting go, dropping it like a dead rat.

I looked over at her and then up, seeing what she was staring at.

Louis.

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Hey guys i know i havnt done an a/n in a while, and I'm sorry this chapter was super crappy and stuff, but i really wanted to update and get this out there before i update again maybe sometime tomorrow.

Everyone tells me i should have a certain time to do my updates like every Wednesday or Saturday ect. But with the schedule i have this year, there is no telling what's going to happen, so i would hate to have a set day for me to update and not be able to fulfill it, because i feel horrible enough not being able to update all the time on my other books as well.

So if you actually read this far, this book is going to be my main book that i update a lot. Here and there when i have extra time i will update my other books, but it will mainly be this one and probably jay park.

Those two books will probably be my main books that i will be updating. Jay park because it's my first boyxboy book, and a kiss on the wrist because i connect to this book on a much deeper level than any of my other ones, and I'm so glad that this book has been a success, well a success to me.

And the truth is even if no one read this book , i would still be writing because writing. Ames me feel so much better, rather you like my writing or not.

Regardless of what anyone tells me, I've got to focus on the things that make me happy, that is one of the I've got to do on this road to recovery.

You know i always though i needed someone to love me unconditionally, but really all i need is for me to love myself unconditionally, regardless of my flaws and insecurities, cuz guess what, ima human.

I'm not perfect, nor will i ever be no matter how hard i try.

I'm me.

And being me isn't always gonna be easy or happy, but I'm the only one who can change this, who can turn my life around, and i get massive support from you guys, i get dm's on Instagram and Kik all the time from you guys, and it brings a a smile to my face, i love it when you guys just hmu and tell me about how your day went, or how much you enjoy my stories.

But most of all i love giving you guys advice, i love when you guys come to me when your feeling down or sad, because i know what it feels like, and it makes me happy that I'm here for you, it makes me happy when you tell me that ive helped you. Any way because i love helping you guys.

I love writing for you guys.

I mean just the other day someone asked me to write a chapter for them, and do you know how happy that made me? Very.

So if you want to check it out, i wrote one chapter of @meganlovesniallhoran her book, I'll be anything (niall horan fan fiction) and it was a pleasure it really was, so this chapter is dedicated to @meganlovesniallhoran

she is an amazing writer and an amazing person i have so much fun talking to her and reading her stories, so give her a follow and a read if you survived my very long a/n , sorry for it,

Lots of love to my crazy mofos

Xx-Auzhieah-xX