daily update by Hwina

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01:01
Mon,
2018
31 Dec

The moment that I will never forget . Watching horror movie with my crush . He does not that I like him . Yeah , its a year ago and this feeling come again kill me LOL . I love suffering . I was angry that time . Me and my cousin waited him . I texted him when will he come . he replied he will come in 15 minutes . so , I waited with patience . After 15 minutes , he still not come . its already more than 15 minutes . Finally he arrived . Without feel guilty , he come to me and smile . THAT TIME IM NOT ANGRY ANYMORE . JUST LOOK AT HIS SMILE MY ANGER GONE . Okay , we heading to the cinema room . I realized he acting weird . Like always he will go first leave me behind but that day , he at behind me . I moved to the right he also moved to the right . So , I let it be . OKAY .. THIS PART KILLING ME . We (four : 2 girls 2 boys ) picking up the right seat near the entrance . the Arrangement is like My cousin (boy) , My cousin (girl) , Me and My crush . I give the water I bought just now at the counter ( its Sprite ) and the popcorn the him . We shared it . I dont like popcorn too much . So there is no problem if I cant eat popcorn . Before the movie start .. there will be some annoying ads . I ask him about the class next year . There is a confusion because , after take exam result .. he list on the science class but today our former teacher post a new list without explaintion of it . One of my cousin also confuse of it . We didnt talk a lot about it because the movie will start in a few minutes more . During the movie was screening , many unspeaking behavior occurred . first , I let he eat the popcorn alone LOL . And he giving up .. and give to me . So I just eat . I tilt my head to the right . So his head also tilt to tge left and our head meet . Im the short one and he is the tall one . Its like sweet couple were on their date but we are not . Idk what . I try to move out his head but I accidentally touch his neck . WHAT THE ! LOL . he moved his head and go straight . He whispered on my right ear . he talk to me softly . One action of the movie he do to me . " you know that .. their just stabbing right here *point on my left neck* . I FEEL LIKE OH GOSH WHAT HE JUS DO TO ME . half the movie I already feel bored . I stand my head with my left hand and HE LOOKING AT ME . IDK WHY . HE JUST LOOKING AT ME . AND I LOOK TOO . EYE CONTACT IN DARK SITUATION CAN HAPPEN YOU KNOW . Oh .. I almost sleep so he touched my wrist and moved a little to make me woke up . Our shoulder meet . Oh shit I forgot something . I sat straight and he pull my shoulders make me lean on the chair . ITS A SWEET EVER MOMENT FOR THIS YEAR . THERE IS ALOT BUT I DIDNT REMEMBER THEM NOW . ITS TOO HARD TO RECALL ALL THE THINGS . I SUFFERED FROM THE SEVERE PRESSURE HIT ME . IM STRESSFUL . TENSION HIT ME EVERYTIME . ALMOST GIVE UP AND WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE BUT THERE IS A LOT I HAVE TO DO BEFORE I DIE .

Hwina