Songs of Milan

Water 🙇🏽‍♀️

  tell the truth you know you cannot keep me safe,

   i dive into each tear that bleeds through this paper to forgive the ghost that taught me to be open to pain
  a four page letter will never be enough to pour out this hollow heart, and stop me from running towards the fire that connected our souls to sin
  "never meant to play mind games with you, i'm confused honestly"...
   roles reverse, introduce your disbelief.
   you saw me before i saw you, you had that look in your eyes like you wanted me for a long time.. but then you took my fingers in yours and some part of me understood that i couldn't keep you..
   two sides of me couldn't agree, every part of me ached to be with you.. sometimes i wonder if you felt this way too
   i need a break from myself,
   your soul brings me to the brink of intoxication
   how could you just wash away any and all emotions away so quickly? i put my heart first and came back to try again, but your intentions were numb, your true form hissed through my veins sending sobriety to my mind
   "i understand your feelings, but i'm fine with just the friendship"
   no avail loved by no regard ..

   what is it that you want from me?
   "come stay the night"
    ..just friends close hearts and open legs..
   you jumped inside of my mind and began to mangle with my heart, as your soul met my inner thighs and all restrictions were suppressed, wave the white flag.. i was falling, each tear is every word that my screams could not say to you
   i am not your late night .
   you ask to still be friends, how can you expect me to be your friend while my feelings dwell in the corners of my eyes forming into tears when i see you.. you want my forgiveness in the form of a friendship
   when i think of you for a second i feel anger but i let it go.. a bitter affliction only seductive by name, forgiveness

    i find more pain in your arms than i can ever find in hate
    you will never know this love