the girl in the club • jack gilinsky

7.3

bella's pov

yes it occurred to me that I was going to the jack's house. yes I knew that gilinsky was going to be there. yes and I know that he has done nothing but patronise my relationship with benji all over social media. but yet I still decide to go, with benji on my arm. I was dressed in a mesh see through top with a black bralette beneath it, with my white loose linen pants. benji was dressed in a fitted white button up and black ripped jeans. we looked good together, matching and all. well I like to think so. benji was nervous, he only had ever met the girls, who loved and adored him. he met johnson when he picked us up from the airport, but even then johnson did nothing but patronise me with gilinsky and barely said a thing to benji. sammy messages me everyday mentioning how excited he is to meet benji after the praise stassie has gives him, wilk and I had grown an undeniable bond over the last few years and I tell him everything. even that I was nervous to see gilinsky in person finally. sammy told me that gilinsky was also nervous, that gilinsky is happy for me (he sure has a weird way of showing it). nevertheless I am nervous, shaking to the bone. benji senses my nerves and kisses my forehead as we drive off into an uber to jacks place. 

this place looked all too familiar, except now with almost 100 people fill the interior of the house and another 60 odd more in the backyard. I haven't been here since we broke up. my breath hitched, I see him standing over in the distance with sammy. our eyes meet I smile and in return he frowned and turned away. sammy however asked us to come over with his hands and so I led benji over with my hand. 

"hi sammy!" I greet engulfing him into a hug and I faced jack, 

"hey jack" I mumble and he barely looked up from his phone, my heart dropped. "this is benji, benji this is sammy and jack" I introduce my boyfriend to them, sam offered a friendly handshake and smile, while gilinsky's eyes remained trained on his phone, I wonder what was so interesting on his phone he couldn't look up to say hi. if I remember correctly he barely looked at his phone when we were together, especially at a party. anger boiled inside of me as I excused us both to go meet other people, leave sammy with gilinsky. 

"I'm sorry about jack, he isn't usually this rude" I apologise to benji, and he only pecked my lips in response, "I don't expect your ex to like me, I mean I did make his girl fall in love with me" he chuckled and I gave him a small smile in response. it's true, I wasn't jacks girl anymore. it just hit me. but he cheated on me and I didn't deserve that either. but you loved him bella. I did and I think somewhere in me I always will but we don't belong together, we always end up hurting each other. ignoring my thoughts I drag benji over to the open bar and pour myself and him a cup of tequila. jack and jack speciality. classic. I see kelsey, stassie and johnson on the dance floor and danced over to them with benji following closely behind, following me as he knew no one. 

"wassup bels! oh and hi man!" johnson greets over the loud music and he brings benji towards the outer of the dance floor to talk. I hope he doesn't say anything to scare him away. I look at kels and stas in fear, "don't worry! johnson has been saying how excited he was to get to know benji, he felt rude for not paying him enough attention in the car" kels explained and the colour went back to my cheeks in relief. continuing to dance with two of my best friends. but I couldn't help but feel jacks gaze on me. not long after johnson's and benji's chat they joined us in dance, we are all laughing. I felt a buzz in my pocket, I go to look and see a text from gilinsky.

jack: can we talk 

me: ok where?

jack:  my room.

me: front yard 

jack: fine 

I excuse myself from the group, whispering to benji that I will be back. I made my way to the front to see jack sitting with his head in-between his knees on the porch. 

"hey, you wanted to talk"

"bella, i miss you" he softly speaks, 

"jack me too, but I'm with benji now"

"fuck, don't say his name" 

"jack he is my boyfriend"

"no, no, you are supposed to be with me"

"jack is this what you wanted to talk about because if it is this conversation is over and I am going back inside where my friends are"

"then what am I? if I'm not your friend or your boyfriend?" 

"you are my friend jack, maybe even best friend"

"what if I don't want to be your best friend" he begins to cry and I pull him in a hug closely, he wraps his arms around my waist and I slowly rubbed his shoulders and back calming him down. 

"jack, I will always love you no matter what. you were my first love, but I need to move on and let you go"

"why can't we just pick up from where we left off?"

"sometimes two people who were in a relationship were in a relationship at the wrong time. if they were meant for each other then they will always find a way back to each other"

"bella, I really am happy for you, you are happy and that is all I want for you"

"thank you jack"

"I love you, I always will bels"

"and I love you, I always will jackers"

this is the closure that we both needed. to finally find happiness not together but with other people, being another girl or guy or with our friends. and for now we both walked back into the party as friends, best friends. me going back to benji to introduce jack to him and hopefully they find happiness within each other. well at least for me. johnson winked at me and Sammy gave me a thumbs up, and in this moment I knew I helped provide the closure that jack and I both needed.