Fight

P. Fourty one

LUNA
Almost freedom! Still need to do a lot of interviews, we have some award shows to attend, other events I need to do. 'Hey secret lover.' Smiling I look at Charles, he sits down on a different couch. I'm just chilling in the lobby.
'Hi.' They all think Charles and I are in a relationship, they are stupid. Only because we're really close with each other in the vlogs that Amaya and Ava posted from when we were having fun here last week. The pictures I've posted aren't helping much either. But if I delete them it will look even suspicious, not that I'm gonna delete them, they don't bother me. 'I'm happy you know about me and Dan.' Otherwise he could have thought I really liked him. Never tough. He has a beautiful girlfriend. 'Yeah. But I don't get it, they know I have a girlfriend right?'
I shrug. 'I think so, that is why we are "secret".' I giggle. It is so stupid, it's not like she is a cover up for us. Writing that Charles and I keep our relationship private, so no one will figure out. Reading or hearing about it always makes me smile, it's ridiculous.
'At least it takes the attention of you and Dan.' I nod. That is true.
'I'm glad it does, but also suck a little.' Sometimes it feels to me I'm messing with his relationship, definitely not something I want to do. 'Are you happy with your first season at Ferrari?'
He nods. 'Yeah. You? Are you happy with your first f1 season.' This is probably the third time we're talking about f1 together.
'I am. 28 points definitely happy with that.' I change my sitting position. 'If you tried harder you could've won.' The championship was a close battle between Lewis and Vettel, Red Bull coming very close too.
'I did my best.'
Frowning I look at him. 'Liar.' He is better than this.
'I'm serious Lune.' I shake my head.
'You ain't fooling me.' He had some team orders, they weren't all obvious, but he got them. He just shakes his head, what makes me smile. 'I'll stop talking about it.'

***

Smiling I look at the videos of me and Selena, she is so sweet. Currently I'm at her place. I've been in LA for one week now and I'm enjoying it allot. Some pictures were taken when I was playing volleyball with some random girls at the beach. When I was younger I used to play, it was fun doing it again, can't deny I didn't miss it. 'I love this one.' Selena shows me a picture of us laughing at each other. 'Me too.' Selena and I got in contact through Instagram, we decided to do a drink 4 days ago and I've been staying at her place ever since. I opened up to her, she opened up to me. We've been having 4 amazing days. And I'm being healthy with her, which I actually love. We've been going for a hike early in the morning, every morning. 'When are you teaching me go karting?' I promised her we would go karting together, she's never really been, or at least not for ages. I'm starting my training week the day after tomorrow. I have a little double feelings. My vacation is pretty busy. Still I have meetings with brands, shooting some videos for brands, I'm getting in the car sooner than expected; that project I am most excited about.
'Tomorrow?' She nods. My phone rings. 'It's Daniel.' Selena softly smirks. I pick up. 'Hi.' I'm going to Aussie at the end of this month. We haven't spent Christmas or New Years together, I haven't seen him in person since December. Almost a whole month, I miss my baby.

***

'Can I speak to you for a second?' I ask the beautiful woman in front of me. She nods, we walk to a little more private place. I'm filming a video clip of hers, Lola is here too and playing in it too. I take a deep breath before speaking. 'I've been sexually abused a couple years back, so I don't know if I'm able to do that.' I still get scared when man that I don't really know touch me.
'I'm so sorry.' The woman wraps her arms around me, hugging me tight, it feels genuine.
'I wanna try though.' Beyonce nods.
'If it doesn't work, just say it, then we'll change things.' This time I nod. The video is about a young female having diner with her family and her father forces her to marry someone, but she walks away and does the thing she loves the most.
'Thank you.' Beyonce hugs me again before we walk back. Don't really know how we ended up here, that she even knows who I am is still a mystery to me.

Tears fill my eyes as his hand moves up. He is playing it safe, for now, because you can't see what's going on underneath the table, yet. Later they are gonna do a close up. I don't want Lola to take my place, because of my scars they will see it's not me. While I look right into the camera I swallow. Moving the man his hand back and get up from the table. I walk out of the room. That's how I had to play it. 'Very good.' I walk back to the dining room when the camera stopped. Beyonce raises her thumb. I nod, softly smiling.

'Is it hard driving the car?' She asks interested.
'It's defiantly different than a normal car, that's for sure. You really need to get used to it and practice, a lot. But once you're in it, it's freedom.' I haven't seen the car yet, Beyoncé made an whole different livery.
'You think I could drive it?' I shrug.
'I would love to say yes and let you go for a round, but if something happens to you, it's on me and I don't want that. But I would love to drive you in a two seater one day.' People will hate me if something happens to the queen. I don't want something to happen to her either, need more music of her.
'Promise?' I nod smiling.
'Promise.' We're in Texas, we've been filming for two days now, it's still fun. We're shooting the last scenes, which is sad.
I'm wearing an amazing suit too, also designed by Beyoncé. It has some powerful words on it, it also has the Red Bull logo on it, that was a part of the deal. Same has the car, that I still haven't seen. 'Did you ever tried?'
Lola shakes her head. 'Never.' I really need to take Lola on a fast ride, maybe some hot laps.
'You don't wanna?' Again Lola shakes her head.
'No not really. I don't like the stuff she's doing, it's dangerous.' I smile, love her so much.
I wrap my arm around her, pressing my lips on her cheek. 'You're so cute.' She probably still has the crash in her mind, she had to wait those long minutes for me to answer back, for me it was just a split second.
'Yeah I saw your crash, it looked really scary.'

Walking a circle around the car I look at it. It's an old one, Red Bull RB12, no halo. 'I love it.' It has the same sort of vibe as my suit. My helmet is my own. I can't wait for the people to see my new helmet, it still isn't fully finished yet. But it's gonna be nice.