Little White Lies

Life was hard growing up . I was born in Homes Chapel , Cheshire in the UK. I lived with my grandma , my parents , and my 2 sisters. My Dad got a great paying job in Pennsylvania . We moved when I was 4. It was a big change for me , actually it was quit horrible . It was weird for me to be around people that weren't .... ya know , british ?

I was the oldest out of 3 kids . My sister Brittany (2 years younger) , and my youngest sister Destiney (3 years younger) . Over time I became very protective over them since my Mum was fired from her job and my Dad began drinking . Lets just put it this way , it wasn't a good environment for a 5 , 3 , and 2 year old to live in .

My parents lost their shit , I don't really know what went wrong ... everything happened so fast . They were always so good to me and my sisters , they still tried to be even though they were drunk and high off their asses .

After my Aunt found out about my parents she flew to PA to adopt us . "You have 2 choices sign these adoption papers and let me take the girls , or go to court and be thrown in jail for child endangerment " those were the exact words my Aunt said to my parents before she officially adopted us and took us back to are home town .

I was about 7 by the time I finally came back to Cheshire . My aunt , my 2 sisters , and I moved back in are old house with my grandma . I loved life , I didn't have parents around but I was better off .

A week after moving back , I made so many new friends . I started hanging out with these two boys EVERYDAY . Their names were Eric , and Ryan . They introduced me to more people , and I felt .... popular in a way , even though I was only 7 . I was thankful for those two boys , and im pretty sure Brittany had a crush on them. I wouldn't blame her though , they were cute . Ryan had black , hair green eyes and was taller then the average 7 year old , and Eric was small with blonde hair and green eyes .

When I was 10 , I went into a deep depression after finding out my Dad was in jail and my grandma had breast cancer . I don't know why I cared about were my Dad ended up , I still loved him but he gave up on me , and I gave up on him . But I know I cared about my grandma more then anything . My grandma is the most forgiving , kindest , loving person in the world . She considered me as her own , along with my two sisters , and Eric and Ryan .

It was a rough time in my family finding out my grandma had cancer . We tried not to worry about it , if we did my grandma would know and she will yell at us . She would tell us " Im 57 years old ! Im to young to be worrying about you worrying about me !" She was a fighter .. we all knew that , so why were we worrying ?

At the age of 12 , I was a full on rebel . Eric , Ryan , and I would sneak out and go to parties ANYWHERE , we even went to Bradford ! We had a lot of older friends that would pick us up and drive us across town to go to these insane parties that I felt like were a "cure" for my depression . I started smoking weed , drinking , and taking pills I didn't even know the name of at these parties . I know what you're thinking , "Your 12 , what the actual fuck ? You should be cuddling with teddy bears and watching PBS"  ..... yeah I should of been doing that ... it would have ended up better for me , ... for them (Eric & Ryan)

At 13 I started going out with this kid that I met at one of the parties ... Harry I think his name was . I should remember his name since I lost my damn virginity to him and swore I loved him . Hah , "young love" . Eric and Ryan didn't seem to really like him , but I remember being head over heels for this kid . He wasn't a type of boy you would bring around your parents , but I wanted to show him off and show people that someone wanted me . I brought him home to meet my sisters , my aunt , and of course my grandma . They loved him because they knew he wasn't as bad ass as he came off to be . We went out for 4 months , he made me stop partying , smoking , drinking , and popping pills .

Harry would say to me ; " You're better then your parents , don't follow in their foot steps ."  I listened to him because I was sooooooo "in love" and it was true , why would I do the same thing that ruined my parents lives, because im pretty sure it would of ruined mine if I kept doing it .

I broke up with the green eyed , curly brown haired boy I called Harry because he bought me a necklace that said "forever" , well i think that's why .... I usually forget irrelevant things like that . I shouldn't have broken up with him , but we were only going out for 4 months I think and forever is a long time . I mean jesus , I was only 13 and he was the same age ! We can't possibly be together forever .

Harry was the longest relationship I had , but he wasn't my last . I dated so many guys and that's why I forgot about Harry . Guys were in and out of my life , but only two guys stayed ; Eric and Ryan .

Enough about my past , and by the way I go by the name Jasmine . Jasmine Martin .

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so I'm pretty new at this , but I had an awesome story line for a 1D fanfic for like ever ! Im so happy im finally starting it . Please comment , like , whatever you can possibly do to show me you like the book so far ! I'll probably update like everyday , because I know how you guys feel about waiting for a book to update ! Please keep reading there is so much more to happen in this book ! Thank you for reading , love you !