I'm a believer, a servant, i have faith, i'm deeply inlove with Him. i'm a catholic.
but a sudden moment change everything..
i thought when i serve Him everything will go smoothly,
i thought when i love Him more than anything else my life would be good..
but that was just a thought..
i changed, i became a hater, a loner
i don't care about anything.
the reason????
my mom died and i love her so much, she was the reason why i do my best to be good, be cause she is a great mom, kind, loving and caring mom, a Mom that every child would have wished to have,
but that Mom just passed away because of a disease, an uncurable disease.
i prayed so hard for miracles but nothing happen, no miracle come..
i thought He is a God but why my mom?? that was the question playing in my mind.
why a great mom??
i continue being a loner until one day someone approaches me, i was about to ignore her but she insist to talk to me, she didn't let me go,
"just listen, even if you don't talk it's ok, just listen.please?"
i sat on the bench and she sat beside me.
"i see it in your eyes, your sad. i'm sorry for being a meddler, whatever is your question in mind and what ever bothers you, i know a place to help you those,
this is a conference, just try to go..please.."she lend me a paper and i get it without looking.
she flash a smile and gone.
*sunday morning
i woke up so early, it's unusual but i really don't know why i woke that early..
i scan my phone and saw a message from my dad, "i can't come home today. i'll see you tomorrow k?"
as always..he always doesn't have time for me..
i don't have anything to do today...
then i saw the paper the girl gave me. i look at it,
it was a conference but it doesn't have a title,
ooh maybe it's a concert!
i think i want to go...
*at the conference
it was a theater so i don't hear anything outside..
at the registration i saw the girl that talked to me last time..
she came to me and she guided me in..
i hear the singing of the people i know it's a worship song i heard it before..
"i'm coming back to the heart of worship adn it's all about you, it's all about You Jesus."
i was about to go out,
but the girl didn't let me, she always do that..
so i just go with her, all were standing except me, because i sat down...
the worship was done and all of them seated..
a man in front appear..
to my surprise i saw a familiar man.
i can't move..
he started talking,
"it was a long time since i saw an important person came in a place and event like this, she was attending before but not until someone left her." don't know what to react coz i know i was the one he is talking about. i just bowed my head.
"i am thankful that she was here right now, i haven't had a great time with her since that incident happen. i became busy at work and she busy with something i don't know, we became too far from each other, we both get hurt because of what happened."
tears fell from my eyes.i forgot i still have my dad..
i forgot i still have my friends,
i forgot that God has reasons why these things happened..
i forgot everything i've learned because of one incident, because one person was gone
forget that i still have bunch of people with me that i just ignore and take forgranted.
"to my little girl, i'm sorry. i forgot that i still have you,"
dad and i are the same, i was crying that time and i saw myself runing after him..
i hugged him, and he hug me back..
"i'm sorry dad.."
"i'm sorry Daddy God."
i shouldn't have hated Him,
i lost one, i won't let lose all.
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sorry panget..haha
first story lang..haha
pacomment na lang po ng suggestions para maimprove pa ang aking pagsusulat ng storya..
salamat po.:)
