Still I Stand

Pain, hurt, sickness, and disease

Every single one of these knocked me down on my knees

But, every time I was knocked down I managed to get back up

Because mama didn't raise no fool, she raised someone tough

Yes, I have scars, some self inflicted, but most from others

I have been through so much if you heard it you'd shutter

Cancer, abuse, no parents by my senior year

Molested and raped feeling like nobody even cares

Lied to, cheated on, always being over seen

Talked about, mistreated, lowering my self-esteem

But, the funny thing about self-esteem is it comes from one's self

That's something that comes from within, you can't get it from someone else

What you can get from others is the feeling of being happy

But, when they are not around you end up feeling crappy

See, happiness to me is a materialistic thing

It's when you're given something and with that a smile it'll bring

I don't rely on happiness because it can be taken away

Happiness is just a feeling in the moment, but not one that'll stay

I rely on joy because that's something that comes from within and from above

It's that sensation that trumps happiness, it's that self and Godly love

It's that peace from within that cannot be taken from you

It's that smile that you conjure up no matter what you're going through

It's that feeling of comfort when you are alone

It's that warm feeling you get even when you are cold

Joy is also strength, it's what gets people going

Joy is always with you without you knowing

See as I look back at the sands of time

I am joyful to announce that I am just fine

Everything that has happened in the past, is just that, in the past

I stand here today to show you that the bad does not last

Still I stand no matter what was said

Still I stand when I slept in my car with no bed

Still I stand even when cancer tried to take me

Still I stand when facing my enemies

I look at myself as if I were sand

Once heated up I'm beautiful glass, strong and still I stand

Never get put down by no other man

Let them know when they come near you they are entering quicksand

That diagnosis given to you is not from God but from man

You look that person in the eye and say you can't beat it, but my God can

After you gain your joy I want you to do your best dance

I am looking forward to the day where you can say “Still I Stand.”