Broken Glass//Shawn Mendes (UNDER MAJOR EDITING)

Chapter 6

✖️ S P E N C E R ✖️

"So, Shawn. What are your hobbies?" my Mom asked Shawn as we all sat around the dinner table.

Shawn's look swiftly went from the food on his plate to my Mom. "Oh! Uh.. I sing and eat muffins." He said. The muffins part made me smile. That's really a hobby for him?

"Oh! you sing? from what I remember, Spencer had a very nice voice. When she was little all she did was sing. It's like music is in her blood. I'm sure she still can. I just haven't heard her sing in awhile." Mom replied.

My smile fades, My eyes expand, and my cheeks turn deep shades of red. Shawn looks at me with caring eyes and a sweet smile. I let out an awkward "hah." and turn my attention back to my food. Why did she have to say that? maybe I didn't want him to know I could sing. God, mom get with the program.

"Do you still sing, Spencer?" Mom asked me. "Sometimes, yeah..." I answered shyly. "Let's hear." Nash said. "I don't think I'm very comfortable with that right now, thanks." I mumble and keep my eyes on my food. "I'd like to hear you one day." Nash replied. I did not want anyone to hear me sing. The reason for this is I'm too shy. I'm too scared of rejection.

After dinner everyone went their separate ways. Nash and Shawn went to Nash's room. Mom and Chad went to theirs. Hayes and Skylynn are watching tv and I'm in my room messing with my guitar.

"Our light was cutting through so loud. Memories are playing in my dull mind. I hate this part, paper hearts. And I'll hold a piece of yours. Don't think I'll ever forget about it. Hoping you won't forget about it." I sang to myself.

"Paper hearts by Tori Kelly. Nice song choice for your voice." Shawn said as he appeared in my door way. I panicked and ended up falling from my bed to the floor. "Oh my god." Shawn said and laughed. He walked over and helped me off the floor. "I'm so embarrassed." I said. Shawn sticks his hands in his pockets and looks down at his feet. His smile was evident and his cheeks turned so red. He was so cute when he blushed.

"What are you Doing in here anyway?" I asked and sat on my bed with pumping nerves. Just Shawn's presence makes me nervous. He sat beside me and placed his hand on my knee.

"I thought we'd talk. Ya know, be friends."

What if I want to be more than friends?

"I could see that happening." He stated and blushed madly.

"Did I really just say that out loud?" I said and blushed.

"Yes. But it's okay. I was thinking the same thing." He said and grabbed my hand. He laced our fingers together. I could feel his body heat on my hand. It might sound weird but it brought some type of peace to my crowded mind. Just knowing that he was there and willing to be here with me.

Shawn's smile fades when he sees the scars on my arms. When I notice my smile fades too. "Spencer... how long have you done this?" Shawn whispers. He takes his free hand and runs his fingers over the scars. "Three years. 2 weeks clean." I replied sheepishly. "I never doubted that you were going through some things, but now that I see it, it makes it so real." Shawn said. Shawn lifts my arm up to his face and places his lips on my scars. he lift a small kiss on them and asked "can I help you?"

"With what?"

"Everything."

"Shawn, I barely know you."

"You know me well enough to know that I'll always be here." He said. All I could do was nod my head. A tear rolled down my cheek and Shawn wiped it away. Then I realized, I did know him well enough to know that. Hell, the first time I even met him I cried on his should for awhile and he didn't judge me at all.

I sniffle and wipe my face with my sleeve. "Why?" he asked with a look of concern on his face. "Can we not talk about this? I don't want to cry." I replied still hanging my head. My eyes remained on the floor but Shawn's remained on the side of my face.

"I never heard you sing." I spoke up after a few minutes of comfortable silence. "Can I see the guitar?" he asked and I nodded. I handed him my guitar. His fingers lightly ran over them causing a little bit of sound.

"I tell my story in reverse, cause it hurts. Girl it hurts too much to bare..."

His voice filled the room and my mouth hung open in amazement. He was so good. He had so much talent. He was really pop star worthy. Maybe he should start vine like Nash.

I watched the hand that was once in mine strum the strings. His fingers were so skilled.

When he finished the song he blushed.

"You're so good. Mesmerizing, actually." I complimented him. The smile that was on his face grew bigger causing a warm tingle shoot throughout my body.

Then Shawn looked at me in the eyes for a second. He didn't say anything but his eyes were full of thought. He glanced at my lips then back to my eyes. Shawn licked his lips and leaned in closer to me. I shouldn't let this happen, but I wanted it to. Shawn's soft lips touched mine. They stayed there for a second before I pulled away.

"I can't." I blurted out. "What?" he asked with a face full of confusion. "I can't kiss you because then I'll fall for you and you'll break my heart just like every other guy." I explained. A look of pity came onto Shawn's face and I hated it. I didn't want his pity. I didn't want anyone's pity as a matter of fact.

"I won't hurt you. Let's just go to bed." Shawn said and stood up from the bed. He set my guitar on it's stand and began to walk out.

Then I spoke something I never thought I would've spoken. "Shawn, wait. Sleep with me?" He turned around and crawled in my bed with me. I laid on my side and he laid on his. My back was to his stomach and his arm was around my waste. I reached up and turned out the light.

"Will you sing me to sleep?" I asked sheepishly. I could feel Shawn's smile grow.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted. I thought about our last kiss, the way it felt, the way you tasted. Even though your friends tell me you're doing fine..."

He sang into my ear. The smoothness in his voice calmed me so much. before I knew it I was asleep. Asleep in my crushes arms.

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(A/n)

sorry this chapter really sucks. I have school. Now so I can't write as much.

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