Beautiful defaults

Chapter 1 : The obivious difference

Society tends to judge us according to our physical appearance. I mean how you can be mistreated or bullied because they're different? I thought our differences made us unique.
Due to the pinpointing of our imperfections, we tend to reciprocate that very same energy given off by the so-called " beautiful people " resulting in us creating a blotted image of ourselves.

I'm Roy Jonathan Woods, I'm the second born of 3, one sister and an older brother. Ever since I was a little child I noticed a difference between my family and myself, I've always asked my mother why I was so different and what was so different about me and she always said "Nothing my child, you're no different to me, your father and your siblings, okay ?" My mom knew exactly how to make me feel less different than I thought I was. My mother planted a mindset that threw me off the whole " I'm different " mindset, she always showered me with love, and so did my father and my siblings.
I always wondered why I was treated so "special".

As a kid I wasn't allowed to leave the house, I was homeschooled completing my primary schooling at home where my mom's older sister taught me, my mom's older sister was a primary school teacher at a school not so far from where I lived,

I always asked my mom why I couldn't go to that school like other kids she ignored it like she did to all my questions.

Then came March the 5th, my birthday. My dad was running late, he had promised me a gift and I was so excited and anxious to get it, till I heard a knock on the door which sounded exactly like my fathers and I dashed as quickly as I could to the door, opened it with excitement and to my disappointment there stood  a lady with her son at the door my mom asked: " baby is it your father ?" I replied "No Mommy" She asked again " Then who is it ? " the lady and her son kept staring at me in the eye like I was some kind of discovery, my mom came and quickly pulled me and placed me behind her like she was protecting me from something but it felt as if she was hiding me.
" Roy what did I tell you about answering the door for people you don't know " she said with a worried tone " I thought it was Daddy" I replied my mom quickly turned to the lady " Sorry he waiting on his father and thought it was his him, it's his birthday he had promised him something, how can I help you ?" the woman replied " oh no that's not a problem, my son and his friends kicked their ball in your back yard and I was hoping you could get it for us ?" She said with a smile on her face but her attention was still pinned on me.

Then the woman's son finally did it, he broke the ice, he spilled the beans, he let the dogs out I mean whichever way you want to put it this kid pointed out my obvious difference, his exact words were "Mommy why is this boy left eye blue and his other eye is normal ?" I thought to myself bingo, looks like I wasn't the only one who could spot the difference. My mother was infuriated "Thank you ma'am there was no need for your son to be rude and impolite " the lady tried explaining her son's actions " No dear you got it wrong he was just ....." my mother immediately cut her sentence and said " your ball will be returned see that you leave my property right now " the woman and her son as well as the other children that were with left as my mom said, my mom quickly locked the door and looked at me straight into the eyes " Roy you're beautiful just the way you are " as those words slowly entered my ears, I felt my mind and soul disconnected by the sharp edge of my emotions.

I ran up to my room locked my door sat on my bed and looked straight in the mirror and I saw it. I was different, a mistake, a black sheep, my whole childhood life was built on nothing but lies, I felt betrayed and manipulated, I stayed in the room for hours till my father finally came home he found my mother weeping, thanks to the way my room was made I could hear what was going on downstairs in the living room as well as the dining room, my father rushed quickly to my mom "Sandra what's wrong ?, did something happen ?" he said with fear in his voice " It's Roy..." she replied, " yes, yes what about Roy ? is he okay ?" He asked fearfully I heard my mother say " he knows "The flame of anger grew more as to knowing that the two people in my life That I trusted the most infecting my life with lies, betrayed me, Manipulated me, and took my existence for granted.

You know I just wanted to be just like everyone normal, free, living without any isolation what so ever I just wanted to be human, so the distance between my family and myself remained, and as time passed we grew even more apart, when I was 15 I made the decision that I will attend high school as every normal teenager does by the next coming year, of cause my parents were strongly against it but They had no choice but to accept it.

17 of January 2019 my first day of school, High school no wait for a proper school I was so excited I woke up early fixed myself, and waited for the school bus, the same lady who back then when I was a kid discovered my situation always woke up at this time for her morning exercise and spotted me across the road on the sidewalk in front of my house looking all decent she greeted " Morning Roy, how are you ?" with a welcoming smile I replied with the same kind of energy " Morning Mrs. Johnson, I'm good and you ma'am ? " she replied " I'm fine dear just going for my morning fitness, why are you up so early? " I was proud and happy to say this " I'm going to school Mrs Johnson "The reaction was not quite what I expected "That's beautiful!" She said with excitement, I felt so good I mean finally someone happy for me, she replied " I'm so happy, but school at this hour dear ?" I was confused I woke up early and waited for the school bus like the kids do in the movies I mean isn't that what normal kids do? She smiled and asked d" Roy do you know what's the time? " I replied " 06:30 ma'am" Mrs Johnson  asked again "Do you know what time school starts ?" I replied with an unsure tone " You are so cute *she smiled *, school starts at exactly 8 o'clock and the school arrives at 7:30" I felt so embarrassed I forgot that part of the information from the movies, but hey I didn't blame myself Im new to these kinds of things I replied " thank you Mrs. Johnson " she replied with the biggest smile " you're welcome dear, I'm off to my fitness" things changed since the first time I saw Her, she was so shocked I mean it's not every day you see an African kid with a blue eye and a normal eye but now it's like she doesn't even notice it.

So here I am 2 hours and 30 minutes early for school but that didn't kill my spirit at all i was gassed up out going to school this was a memorable day for me.