Stupid Rich Girl

$ 25 - Fear Of Needles?

~ Of you lick someone's elbow while they aren't paying attention, they won't feel it ~

Léna

I froze.

In all the shit I've been through, why was it those five words that made my blood run cold and my heart to clench tightly in my chest.

Right now, all I wanted to do was punch his chest repeatedly as I roar at him for even thinking about that. I wanted to make sure that was drilled into his head. That it wasn't an option. Not now. Not ever.

But I knew I couldn't do that.

Instead I ran the pad of my thumb over his wrist that was still in my grasp.

"Why would you think about doing that?" I whispered. He didn't move and I began to wonder if he heard me.

"It felt like a good option at the time" He said blankly. Not an ounce of emotion hidden in his words. They were so dead.

"Well it wasn't" I said strongly.

"Debatable"

"Your life isn't debatable, Rosen" I snapped harshly, grasping his wrist tight. He snapped his head up to face mine though everything was still hidden. Perhaps he knew I was serious when I his name rolled off my tongue instead.

"Léna" His voice held authority and determination. I waited to see what he could possibly argue my statement with cause I sure as hell know I'd have a better fucking answer to it.

But he didn't argue.

Instead he sighed and tilted his head to look up at me. I stared at him curiously when he failed to say anything. I was growing impatient until he lifted his hand up. His free hand gently moved towards my face but I just stared at his hood. He ever so gently cupped my jaw and my heart was beating a million miles per hour due to his unpredictable actions.

This was a sign of affection and emotions, something I had found Sunshine expresses very little of but yet here he was, his palm beneath my jaw. His skin was rough though his touch was elegant. I was beyond confused and felt like asking him did he want some moisturiser. But that would probably ruin the moment.

"You have no idea how debatable my life can get" His words were sharp enough to cut through me. They were so brutally honest that it pained. I've know this guy possibly a month and yet my heart ached at the though of him leaving.

How selfish can I get? He wants to put an end to his misery but I don't want him to cause I don't want to endure another loss. How could I think that without feeling any remorse knowing there's a possibility that I might have to leave in the morning? Hey, maybe if he sticks around me long enough, he won't have to kill himself cause one of my enemies will do it for him.

Don't think like that.

"But what about your family?" I asked softly but regretted my decision immediately when his hand tensed against my jaw. Realisation dawned on my face and I'm sure he recognised it.

"Your family is the reason" I whispered, stating it rather than questioning it.

"Well I don't want you to leave" I said defensively. "Sure, I might drive you crazy but you've grown in me within the weeks we've spent together and I sure as hell would hate it if you left"

"You know nothing about me Léna, doesn't that scare you?" His voice was heavy and stressed though rehearsed, as if he had imagined this many times before.

"I know enough to know your a good guy Sunshine, you just weren't given a good enough chance to prove it, yet" I smiled. "But I can help with that" I encouraged him with a sheepish grin.