A Daydream Away

Chapter 21: It's Complicated

Cam's POV

Thursday

"Tanga na kung tanga, pero oo papabayaan ko nalang siya"-me

I told Francis about Kier. Lahat lahat sinabi ko sa kaniya. The fact na crush ko si Kier, yung kisses na shinare namin ni Kier. Pati na rin yung plan ko na hayaan na lang si Kier na landiin lang ako. Even si "mystery girl" ni Kier. 

"Ang g@go rin nang Kier na yan noh? May gusto siyang iba ta's nanlalandi siya ng ibang babae. Ikaw naman nagpapalandi! Nauntog din ulo mo noh? Noong nahulog ka? Kasi, kahit saglit palang tayo magkakilala I know you well enough na hindi mo kaya gawin yun sa sarili mo toh! Wake up Camilla! He's just playing with you!"-F

Para siyang tatay na sinesermonan yung anak niya. Which is me. 

Pero nagising ako doon ah. He doesn't like me, I knew this before pero ngayon lang nag' sink in sa akin. I just needed to hear it from someone else. He just doesn't like me. Si "mystery girl" yun yung gusto niya. I'm like Ava and Kara,pangpalipas oras ni Kier. Ginawang entertainment while nag'iipon siya ng courage para makapag'tapat kay "mystery girl". I'm getting sick of it yung "kilig" na nafifeel ko when he's sweet to me f*ck it. The pain he'll cost me when he's done with me isn't worth it.

"O! Ano Camilla natauhan ka na?"-F

I nodded. 

Thank God for Francis, mabuti nalang may guy friend ako. I won't get this kind of advice from Maya, without judgement.

Yayakapin ko sana siya kung hindi naka'sling itong arm ko.

"Hatid na kita magalit pa sayo si Flores eh"-F

Hinatid niya ako sa room.

"Salamat ulit ha"-me

Ginulo niya buhok ko.

"Sus. Wala yun, sige alis na ako"-F

Umalis na siya.

Pag'dating ko sa chair ko, andoon si Kier sa upuan niya nagsa'soundtrip. Wala siya the buong umaga eh. He doesn't have that happy vibe he had yesterday. 

May naka'sipit na papel sa notebook ko. Ano toh? Si "A" ba toh? Naubusan na siya ng sticky notes? 

Umupo ako para mabasa yung letter. 

"Serena. Your second name's pretty. Why do you look so sad? May problem ka? Is someone making you sad? If so, hindi siya worth it. Someone who makes you sad doesn't deserve a place in your life. Pero, pag trip mo lang, ayos yang trip mo ah, nakakahawa. So please smile, kahit fake lang, seeing your smile makes me feel better eh"

A smile started to form on my face, pero hindi nagtagal yun. Tinago ko yung letter sa bag ko.

Dumating si ma'a Flores. Nagpa'copy siya ng pointers. Magpapa'photocopy nalanga ko kay Maya.

"Ms. Benitez"-ma'am

Nagising kaluluwa ko doon ah.

"Ma'am?"-me

"Why aren't you copying your pointers?"-ma'am

Before I could say anything. 

"Nakita mong naka'sling yung arm diba?"-K *in a bastos na voice*

"Was I talking to you Mr. Carlos?"-ma'am

Kier ignored her.

"Now, Ms. Benitez, since you have another working arm why don't you put that to good use and copy your pointers"-ma'am

"Pero ma'am.."-me

"No but's Ms. Benitez, not unless you want a trip to the guidance office"-ma'am

Well I don't. What choice do I have? Dahil sa takot akong mapa'guidance kinuha ko nalang yung notebook at ballpen ko. Bwiset talaga tong si ma'am. Siya na, siya na bobong teacher. 

Grabe ang hirap mag'sulat sa right hand. Pag'hawak palang ng ballpen hirap na. 

"Ako nalang nga!"-K

Kinuha niya yung notebook ko. Siya na nag'copy ng pointers ko. 

Puro pointers lang naman today eh, since exams na next week. 

Geometry time na kay ma'am Garcia, nagpa'copy ulit siya ng pointers. 

"Akin na notebook mo"-K

"Magpapa'photocopy nalanga ko kay Maya"-me

"Tss. Gagastos ka pa"-K

Willing naman siya eh, so binigay ko na. Siya na nag'sulat ng notes ko buong hapon. Mabuti nalang at understanding yung ibang teachers, hindi katulad ni Flores. Mamaya ko nalang siya icoconfront, hindi tama yung oras at yung place. "Perfect timing is everything" nga diba?

After Class

 Nasa sala kami nagrereview ni Kier kasama si Tonnette at Chuck. Oo, si Chuck nag'aaral. The world has given us a MIRACLE!

Noli ang rinereview namin ngayon.

"Saan ka ba makakakita ng lalakeng kasing sweet ni Ibarra these days?"-T

"Andito pa naman ako diba?"-C

Tinaasan siya ng kilay ni Tonnette.

"Kelan ka pa naging sweet aber?"-T

Linapit niya muhka niya kay Tonnette.

"Lagi naman diba?"-C

Tinulak ni Tonnette yung mukha niya. 

Natapos na kami mag'review. 

Hinatid ni Chuck sa kanila si Tonnette, kasi "sweet" daw siya si Kier naman tinatamad pa daw siyang umuwi. Perfect timing for my confrontation.

"Kier.."-me

"I'm sorry"-K

I gave him a confused look.

"Yung kahapon. Tsaka yung sa tree house"-K

Ba't siya nagsosorry? Yung sa kiss?

"Do you regret it?"-me

He looked down.

"*in an audible whisper* no"-K

Hinawakan ko siya sa chin, then I lifted his face up.

"Kier.. If you don't regret it then don't apologize for it"-me

Kinuha niya yung kamay ko sa chin niya. 

"It felt wrong not to say sorry for it"-K

It felt wrong?!

"So you did it to make yourself feel better? Kier, that wasn't a real apology you did that to lessen the guilt you're feeling. Tama ako noh? Naguiguilty ka? Naguiguilty ka dahil you realised you're just playing with me. The kiss? Yung pagka'sweet mo? Laro lang diba yun? Save all the sweetness para kay 'mystery girl' mo. I'll even help you with her, kung yan yung gusto mo. But please stop playing withme, kasi if you keep doing that. I'll have the tendency to fall for you, and I know you won't catch me because you fell for someone else."-me

I didn't sound mad, para ngang nagbebeg ako sa tono ng boses ko eh. I'm so pathetic, ni hindi ko nga kayang magalit sa kaniya eh.

I was about to walk away. Ng bigla niyang hinawakan yung braso ko.

"It's not like that Cam"-K

I rolled my eyes.

"It's like what Kier? I'explain mo nga?!"-me

Ngayon lang ako naka'ramdam ng galit towards him. Bwiset kasi siya eh, anlabo.

"It's complicated"-K

It's complicated? It's complicated my ass.

Umalis nalang ako, I didn't want to see him. Umakyat na ako sa kuwarto ko at umupo sa bed ko. I didn't feel like crying, nawala bigla galit ko sa kaniya. I just realised he's not worth holding a grudge over. 

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