Dear Winter,
Today is day 2.
How was your day?
Mine was weird, for if you were wondering. Everywhere I walk, everywhere I go, people give me that look.
It's a mix of pity and... Fear?
Fear that I might go down or go do drugs or drink a lot or something. And the pity part, well, I guess you can figure out why that is.
Today I went to the little bakery down the street. You know that one right? The one I always forget the name of? With those little weird coloured cookies you love so much? Yeah that one. So I went there to get some bread and the cookies, and the guy said "I'm sorry for your loss."
He's the first one who has actually said that to me since, well, you know since when. And I broke down. Just in the middle of that bakery I started crying. Really crying. Luckily Niall had his shift in the bakery so he calmed me down and helped me. I don't think I've ever felt so ashamed.
Anyways, after that I went home again. And well, that was my day. I went on the internet a bit, watched a few shows on Netflix, and that was it.
How are you?
I'm not so good. But that's okay. You know sometimes I feel really empty. But then I just look outside the window and see the beautiful sky, the stars, the lights of the small town, I hear the town's sounds, I feel the wind on my skin and it feels like I'm not there anymore. Like I've disappeared. Like I've become one of the stars. And the nice thing about that, is that I don't feel empty anymore. I feel like I'm part of something. Like I'm part of the earth and the sky, like I'm part of a whole. Nice, that is.
It reminds me of that time where you fell asleep in my arms. I've never told you, but I couldn't be happier. Though I knew it wouldn't last long, I had now, and now was enough. I held you tightly and I didn't think of anything for a while. Just being there, breathing the same air as you did, being in the same room and having you in my arms, was the kind of comfort I've never felt before.
Maybe you're part of the sky now. Maybe that's why looking at it comforts me so much.
Yours sincerely,
Harry
A/N
sorry this chapter was pretty short. I hope you liked it anyways. X
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