I Miss You

Richard

I looked to see who I knocked out. I noticed it was a medic. I then seen the name on the back of the medic's jacket. I felt even worse. I turned him over and picked him up. I took him and put him in my bed. I called Jaxx. I noticed a cut on the medic's head where he turned around and I hit him. I got something to stop the bleeding with.

"Richard, why are you upset."

I showed him. He walked over to his partner. He checked him. He checked the cut and did first aid to it.

"He is going to be ok. If he doesn't wake up in 24 hours call me back."

I nodded. I felt bad. I keep hurting him. I texted his wife and told her what happened and what Jaxx said. She still wasn't mad at me.
I sat in the corner of the room in a ball. I was looking at the floor. I was just hoping Paul was going to be ok.

I did get up to take his jacket and shoes off him. I did cover him up. I went out to the car I now drive and found two of his beanies in the trunk. One had the Rammstein logo on it and the other was the Berlin fire department.

I put the one with the band logo in my office. The other I put on and went for a jog. I had a lot to apologize for. Can't believe I hurt him not once but twice.

I made it back to the house and fell asleep at my desk. I can't believe I did that. I had a ton of nightmares.