It's now 5:00PM, The rest of the day went at snails pace, though I got to leave at 2 from my practically daily excusing.
I opened up my laptop when I had finished my training, just a month or so until sectionals now.
Due to Georgia and her conversation about messaging, I had recieved 2 messages... From Gavin
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From: Gavin Harvey
Subject: Lunch
Time: Today, 14:20
To: Kayla Prescott
Look, I know you had a deep thought at Lunch today, in science aswell about that new kid, So what if you know him? wouldn't you find that out late? If so, why would he be so important?
Look, you were going to discuss feelings, I know it. You asked how I felt about you and I was honest, couldn't you at least return a favour? I'm not trying to be mean or anything, I really, really like you, and even though you think I don't meet your conditions or standards, I'm almost positive I do.
I've seen the way you look at me, your beauty isn't the only thing I can see upon your face, you may act firm but the wall between you and your feelings is so weak, I can always tell what your thinking, and I like that. It means I don't need to analyse every word you say, but even so I fit you like a puzzle peice. I need to see you about the homework assighnment, time alone then, great. But I need to solve this now.
message me back x
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From: Gavin Harvey
Subject: Feelings
Time: Today, 14:45
To: Kayla Prescott
I was thinking about when you came over, I admit it, I was really turned on by what you did and well... you.
I need to speak to you, call or message, I'll be here.
I want to be your first, I said it and -with your permission- your last. I will travel the world with you, I will handle all the scars, I don't care -I'd be worried- if that's what you want though, fine. I'll accept you and your fights if you can accept my occaisional smoke and drink.
I want to date you, you know it and when you're ready, I will personally ask you I'm ready for you, In every way xx
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Oh my gosh! What the fuck?! Can he really see my emotions that clearly? Can everyone? Okay, I admit it, I like Gavin, A LOT. I need to message him back, he deserves at least that after pouring his heart out at me. I closely analyed his words 'Ready for me in every way' 'My first and my last?' - is he expecting monogamy? marrage? I haven't even done IT yet, let alone considering who I want in my sex life forever. How can Men be so confusing when most of the time they act so dim?! I had to reply ________________________________________________________________________________
From: Kayla Prescott
Subject: RE: Feelings
Time: Today, 17:20
To: Gavin Harvey
I just got your messages, Do you really feel that way? Yes, yes, yes, you turned me on there, no doubt, and no doubt you knew.
I have considered letting myself have feelings for you, I'm just so confused. Yes I did want to discuss... stuff , but I don't know what to say, that I really like you too? That I don't understand how a relationship with you would be like? I do wonder.
I don't know what I'd be like when it comes to stuff like this, and what did you mean 'I want to be your first, I said it and -with your permission- your last'? Do you want a marriage or something? Because we're not even dating...
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From then on, I dried myself off from the shower and sat in my room and watched some gay programme from the eighties of which I don't know the name of. But then I was about to fall into the deep ocean of sleep until a bleep from my Mac woke me up, another message from Gavin: __________________________________________________________________________________ From: Gavin Harvey
Subject: Relationship?
Time: Today, 21:25
To: Kayla Prescott
I knew I did turn you on at my house. If you want we can try this relationship, since I know your curious about all of this. Believe me I could show you so much, and you'd learn it all from me. I want you so badly. And no I don't just want a fling, I want an actual relationship and I will treat you right. I want to be your first, if all works well then I do want to be with you for a long time, but I'm not going to scare you about that now, I don't want to scare you in any way. __________________________________________________________________________________
I didn't reply the rest of the night, one being the fact I was tired, the other was me having no idea what to say. I had a nice, relaxing dream (which is why I could tell I was dreaming)
