Broken to Pieces

Hideaway

Chapter 4

Kali Iris's POV

I've been in my room for two days now only leaving when I needed to use the restroom. I've been babying a bottle of water that's about four months old I found in my closet. I was determined to stay in my room until someone forces me out. I'm pretty sure it's Saturday which means sodapop has today off of work. But he's too chicken to come into my house because if my syncopate mother. My curtains are ripped to shreds and are barely their anymore from the kitten I had when I was four. My father told me it went to the country, maybe my father is there with Toby now. Toby was the name of that furry little creature. Well anyways the sunlight was burning my eyes when it shined In this morning and since Thursday morning I've had them covered up with old newspapers. I haven't cut since that night. It hurts me more to think of the thought Sodapops face when he finds out. But is he really a true friend if he hasn't come and visited me yet. I laid in my bed in the dark, nothing was going through my mind but my blades. I'm trying to stay strong only for sodapop, he has a fragile heart. I have this box, it's called my hope chest. I keep every little happy thought inside of it and when I'm down I look at the notes I wrote to myself. I can't read most of them because the ink bleed from the tear stains. But it's okay I've memorized all of them because I've needed so many happy thoughts throughout the years. Most of my happy thoughts involve Sodapop. Like when I was ten I added 'marry sodapop' 'have twenty kids with sodapop' that one makes me chuckled every time. 'First kiss with sodapop' still hasn't happened. 'Being Sodapops girl' 'soda leaving Sandy for me' 'be loved by someone' tears poured down my face when I read the last one. I repeated it again out loud, then louder, then I quit. Sometimes i try to say things over and over again until it comes true. It hasn't yet. And never will. Tears just kept coming down, like all of that sadness built up since Thursday and came out all at once. "I just feel so alone" I cried so hard.

I laid back down on my bed crying into my pillow. Why am I still here. Sodapop doesn't want me, my family doesn't accept me, the gang only likes me for the cake, and Steve shoot Steve would be happier if I was gone. After an hour of crying I walked over to my blades contemplating if I wanted to again. My hand was on my box ready to go to the bathroom. I picked it up and placed my hand on the door knob of my door. "Hello? Kali Iris?" Sodapop knocked on my door. I looked down at my shrunken stomach from the past few days. My arms were not covered showing all of my scars along with my legs. I didn't answer. I heard his heavy foot steps. "Come on Kali know you're in there" he knocked soft and gently on the door. "Yeah hold on. I just took a...shower" I lied. I thought of shower when I saw the half empty bottle of water. I poured it on my head to make my hair look a little wet. I threw on a long sleeved shirt along with black skinny jeans. Mascara was all over my face from crying. "What's taking so long?" He yelled through the door. "Nothing" my voice was suddenly hoarse. "Are you sick?" He asked with concern. "No. Just a little frog." I yelled back scrubbing my mascara off with my spit. Screw it. I'll just say I forgot to whip it off. I took my bottle of pills and blades and the water bottle under my bed. I wasn't gonna take the newspaper off though. It makes my room look better. Darkness is always better. "Hi" I said as I slowly opened the door. "Hey. What took you so long?" He asked again. "I just had to get dressed and...clean up" I technically didn't lie. "You've had me worried" he said with concern. "Why? You had that blonde waitress" I snapped at him. "Sorry" I mumbled. "Kali Iris that girl was so annoying. She was so talkative. She only talked about herself" he complained. "And I don't ever want to hear you say sorry" he pulled me in for a hug. I flinched when he grabbed my wrist but he didn't notice. At first my arms just stayed limp by my side but when he squeezed I wrapped my arms around he strong perfect body. Like I said before, time freezes when I'm with Sodapop patrick Curtis.

A/n

Aweee that chapter was sad.

AUTHORS HELP. KINDA LIKE A FOOT NOTE

Kali Iris is lost in her own state of mind. Obviously she isn't crazy, yet. But she doesn't know who to trust, or who to like. Even who to talk about. She's gonna try so hard to stop for sodapop but can't. She's like a broken doll. People have used her and broke her. Now she just sits alone in the toy chest but In real life her toy chest is Tulsa :(

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Do you think she is really going to take her life away?

Is sodapop going to fall in love with her?

Will sodapop ask her to be her girlfriend?

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