for broken people

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So people usually think of me as bubbly and happy which is not true a lot of times I have depression i have not told anybody I put up a wall im a broken person a sinner and a liar and I'm not gonna deny it I read about heartbreak and stuff like that just so I can feel something because I havent been able to feel anything but sadness for a while now it's scary and I wish I could feel happiness I'm not even happy at Christmas and I hide myself alot of times I'm lonely and I want someone who will be there for me and I have no one I can trust which is sad I usually read story s to try and feel something and I also listen to music which helps but I know something is missing and I'm trying to fill the void but I haven't yet no matter what I do it's sad but I don't want pity I'm wrighting this because I want to believe that someone cares but I know people don't I know somethings wrong with me I know something has been taken from me or I have been missing something my whole life I just wish I knew who or what I want someone to talk to a friend someone who loves me who understands me but if course that's to much to ask sometimes I ask myself what would happen if I just left of course I tell myself to move forward it will get better but it doesn't i know there a lot people on here with depression and people who do have it you are free to come and talk to me because I'm lonely to

Sincerely
Me❤