Is it just an infatuation or is it love?
Semantics.
Im trying..confusing, so archaic. It mixes indiscriminately on my head.
I should know it myself. As what they say, NO PAIN NO GAIN. It is indeed true but for me, PAIN MORE PAIN LOTS OF PAIN THEN GAIN. How would you know if you don't try it? But...don't learn from your own mistakes, learn from others mis-.
Exploiting.
But how would i know? Pragmatics? Look, im not a psychology or either a mind reader and im totally not a divergent. Should i ask others help? Maybe no..? They won't understand me, its just me who can.
"Riona! Riona! Riona Shine Daez! Oh c'mon, wake up girl, delusion! Do you know what the hell it means? Thank Ashi for not letting me hit you. Why do i have a bone-headed bestfriend? god, it really do frustrate me!"
"Will you please calm your guts out Aikonia? Shouting like that makes me think that your the delusional, looking-so-pathetic girl here!" Ashi throws her glance on me then starts lecturing me with nonsense things like "we should not let him break the wall you created! That bastard! Does he know that girls are fragile? He really is an ass expert! Blahhh blahhh blahh" then like, "what's gotten on you? Ano ba kasing pumasok sa kukute mo ha? Alam mo ba kung gano katanga yang ginagawa mo? You look like a pathetic, delusional, stupid...oh wait scratch that! Desperate, yeah..its the right term! Dont be so desperate! It doesnt look good.."
My eyes were still glued on the floor and i still keep on fiddling with my fingers, i don't really know what im doing..should I stop knowing? b-but..I started it already...
"bee, stop it please? It's just that.." Aiko looks away, "it's too much.."
I looked at her then smiled fakely, eccedentesiast. "Okay okay, i'll stop.." I fixed my things up. "...for now"
Well, things are kinda banal. Boring, cliche, common and so random...
