My dark side!!

About people who gang up!!

I was just leading my normal life in my hostel room no. 208. Spending 4 and half years in a town like that was just becoming impossible now. Till now never the bitchiness i did or all the body shame i could have been told about never flashed infront of my eyes. It was untill summer had begun and i had to go visit my folks atleast for the air conditioner in my bedroom when a surprise was shone on me which almost was as pleasing as heaven. We were going to sikkim for a 1 week trip. Imagine away from all the slutty-business and all the gossips and all the stupidity i did. I was over the moon. Well the trip went pretty awesome. We ate enjoyed my 1st snowfall. It was breath-taking. On my last day who knew my life was going to take that bloody turn. That envious night even satan god lucifer would feel pity if he had to go through what i did.
Maybe it was karma but i was never a person who deserved all those hate and comments or maybe it was my karma for all the personal memos of my friends i read in the darkness of night and all the gossip i told entire college or maybe for calling my bff's as slut infront of entire college made me go through this. Maybe i was also called a slut just to make me feel what they felt. You know they forgave me even after that and i still could not forgive my roomie who called me that. People can be so filled with hate. Innocent hearts they hurt or maybe we are dumb to be so attached to all those people and being so into us. I have no one now. All friends who either gave upon me or i did coz i was too scared to getting close. Lost someone who i thought i loved more than life well it was all selfish for him. Lost myself in all the chaos of what people have made me today. And here i sit 1 year later watching television and all i could still think is WAS IT MY FAULT?? Do i deserve this? Was i that bad? Or am i that weak??