Love Me So I Don't Have To - COMPLETED

3.6

What the hell do you mean by, "I don't feel like I can trust her as much anymore."

What did I do to make you lose trust in me? Was it the Atlanta thing? The same Atlanta thing where you abandoned me, lied to me? The same Atlanta thing where you weren't even the one to have been waiting for us at the end? Yeah, sure, I tried my best to avoid you, but you betrayed me. You trivialized my feelings and laughed at me. You broke my trust. My fucking trust of all things. You have no right to feel betrayed when I was the hurt one. I even got over it for you, for fuck's sake.

I have never spilled your secrets. I have never kept the truth from you that you deserved to know. Not once have I gone and spoiled your trust other than stupidly dating Kyle. But, let's be real. You don't care about that anymore. It was 8th grade.

For as long as we have been friends, I have always tried to help you do what's best for you. I have always tried to make sure your happiness was put before mine. And, suddenly, what I get is being told from a third party you admitted to not fucking trusting me anymore?

Yeah, I'm a shady fucking person sometimes. I typically have little to no problems potentially using someone or lying to them for my advantage. I can be okay with dropping people out of my life like they never meant nothing if they hurt me. I can be okay going on a personal crusade fueled by revenge. But even though I may have a skewed moral compass sometimes, I have true fucking loyalty. I don't backstab someone if they had never done anything to me to deserve it in the first place.

Even if I were to do something at tge same capacity with you, it wouldn't be backstabbing. The closer to me you are, the more painful it would be for you if you were to ever truly betray my trust. I would make sure damn well you knew I was done with you. There would have been words for you to hear or read straight from me.

I know I said I wasn't sure if I could be friends with you once. That was fucking because you said you did not care about my feelings when you lied to me. Hell, you weren't even supposed to know that, but you breached her privacy to find out. But I had a right to feel that way. Why would I have wanted to be close with someone who didn't appear to give a damn about my feelings when I always try my best to put them first?

So, yeah, please fucking enlighten me on what I did to make you lose your trust in me because I cannot see what I did.