(Baby Raina in the picture above(
2 Weeks Later
Today is Rashads birthday. I been crying all day since I woke up. I even cried all day yesterday. I miss him like crazy. Everytime I look at our baby I see him. His mother decided to throw a block party for him.
I looked at the clock it was 10:00am. I got up and went to my closet and grabbed my bleached jeans with the rips and grabbed my shirt that I got made a couple days ago and my black leather jacket. I grabbed my concord 11s and laid it on the bed.
I walked down to the babies room she was laying there so calm. She was a good baby I didn't wake up much in the middle of the night with her.
"Hey stink." I smiled at her and picked her up and kissed her little nose.
I went through her drawers and grabbed her pink and purple floral pants and the shirt I got made for her. It said daddy's girl on the front with his baby picture next to hers. I grabbed her little jean jacket and her purple and pink soft bottom 4s. I grabbed a purple bow for her hair and left the room.
I fed her and then started her bath. I washed her up and dried her off. I lathered her up in johnson&johnson baby lotion. I dressed her in her little outfit. I put her bink in her mouth and laid her in the middle of the bed. I snapped a picture and uploaded it for instagram.
"Raina Says Happy Birthday Daddy. We Love You & Miss You. Continue To Watch Over Us Shad. #Daddy's Girl#ShadsDay#RIP #April121995-August212013"
I put my phone on the dresser and went to the bathroom. I turned on the water and jumped in. I let the water wet me from head to toe for 20 minutes. I grabbed my dove body wash and washed up. I rinsed off and got out. I dried off and put on my victoria secret vanilla lotion. I grabbed my bra and panties and slipped them on. I went back to my bathroom and dried my hair. I decided to straighten it with a part down the middle. When I was finished I put on my clothes and shoes. I slipped my jacket on and grabbed Raina's Diaper bag making sure there was an extra change of clothes and other stuff I was going to need. I picked up Raina and made my way to the car. I strapped her in her carseat placing the diaper bag next to her. I closed the door and walked over to my side of the car. I jumped in heading to Mrs.Dianes house. This is the first time she's going to see Raina besides pictures. A little after Rashad died she went to stay with her sister for a while in Atlanta. She just got back 3 days ago. I was gonna stop by but something came up. I put in my Drake Take Care album in and turned on number and 8 and singing along.
I can see it in your eyes
You're angry
Regret got shit on what you feeling now
Mad cause he ain't like me
Oh you mad cause nobody ever did it like me
All the care I would take
All the love that we made
Now you're trying to find somebody
To replace what I gave to you
Alicia Katia I know that you gon here this
I'm the man
Yeah I Said It
I sung all the way to Mrs.D house. She asked me to come a little early cause she needed me to help with a few things. I grabbed Rain Bug's bag and picked her up out of her carseat and walked to the door. I opened the door and she was in the kitchen making patatoe salad singing to Cursed By Vivian Green.
