2:53 A.M |01-18-19|
It was supposed to happen.I have no where to escape.I pity myself for not being able to fight for myself.Now I'm here forever in this cold room.
A room in where I cannot escape nor I cannot invade.I-i was just alone here.I was just dragged here in which I don't know for some reason.Could my life be better?
If I only I'd trust my instinct.If-if only my parents are still alive? If only I am not a monster then maybe my life could have change?... But- this is me.I am a monster.I don't possess the characteristics of a normal person.I am dangerous and I am harmful...Now I am lonely.
Too lonely that even the spiders left me behind and my insanity is now losing control.Will I last long? Why do I have to be like this? Why do I have to look like a monster? Why am I different from them? I wish I am just a simple girl with a simple life-not me that monster, ugly and lonely...
If I could just rewrite my fate I'll write a better life.I'm a monster.Yes, I am.
I live in this normal world but I don't know why I feel I don't belong here.Maybe I was just. I am just a monster. That's all.Yeah.That's only.
Through these years I am caged. Hauled and haunt by my nightmares and judgmental stares of the sky from my window. I was caught off-guard.I am lonely.Nobody wants to be with me.For them, I am just a useless creature bound to exist in this void world.
I want to escape before. But I think this is better. If I will go out and face the reality I think I will die and die over and over again just by their deadly glares.I think this is much better.I'm accustomed in this place.I'm used to loneliness and I am befriended with it.