I'll get through this

Katie's story

Hey guys, im going to tell you a story that I have never told anyone before, not even my closest friends. This may not be something you would normally hear about, or something you would tell people. But I though it was time for you all to know, what I have been though, and how lucky I am to have people who care about me and would never let me hurt my self.

Well I better get one with it....

It all started but when I was 13, I was just a normal teenage girl, who was finding everything hard. I never liked to go to school, I always wanted to stay home and forget everything about school. But if I stay at home I knew everything was going to get worst. If you haven't worked it out by now, I was getting bullied. The worst time of my life. At the age of 13, you didn't know that it was going to get better, you didn't know if you told someone about it, it could get worst but they would be able to bring it to a stop. All you thought of was that you wanted it to end and you didn't know how it would, you thought that this was your life now and it was never going to change. But if I just thought about all the other people who are out there getting bullied, maybe worst them me, or maybe not as bad as me, they are getting though this. So, so could I. All I had to do was know that everything was going to alright and I will be able to get though this, no matter how hard it gets. Only if I knew life was going to get better I wouldn't of done anything I did. I wouldn't have scars on my wrists, I wouldn't have any scars.

I was 15 when I started cutting my wrists, it was happier moment of my life but I was still getting bullied it was getting worst and worst everyday, nothing I do was going to stop them, it was up to me to end it. I knew I didn't want to end my life, I just wanted all the bulling to go away. Without the bulling my life would of been perfect, I had the best friend ever, Holly, Bethany,Sophie and Samantha, just to name a few who stuck by he though all this, I had the perfect boyfriend ever, Luke Hemmings. None of the knew about me cutting tough I didn't want to tell them, I didn't want to get them worried. I thought if they knew they how they are around me would change, I didn't want that to happen.

I knew that I had to tell at least Luke one day. But I never knew how. I wanted to tell him sooner than later, so I invited him to my house to tell him, I thought to tell him there was the best idea. I don't know why I just did. I didn't know how to tell him and I thought I would ever know how to tell him. I thought if I just tried to get my mind of it, would be a great idea, so I when online to get my mind of it, that weren't a good idea though. The day that I was going to tell Luke was also the day, I started getting cyber bullied. So i was reading all the hurtful messages i was getting, and I completely forgot about Luke coming around, so like what I normally did I went to my bathroom and began to cut again.

Cut after cut, more blood then ever. I was back to me, the me I hated, the me I didn't want to be, I was the wrong me.

From all the cutting I forget that Luke was coming over, until I heard a knock on the door, it was Luke. My younger sister, Hannah got the door, she kept shouting my name, KATIE! KATIE! KATIE! I didn't say anything back to her, so she just said Luke, she is upstairs, go up and see her. Luke went into my room and I wasn't in there, he went back down stairs and said to my older sister, Siobhan and younger sister, Hannah, that he couldn't find me, I wasn't in my room, I want in any of the place where I'm normally. They all searched the whole house, except the one room I was in, the bathroom. Siobhan suddenly heard crying, it was coming from me, but they didn't know that.

They followed the sound of the crying, all the way to the bathroom, I was in.

"It coming from in there" Luke said "there is no way to get in the doors locked, what are we going to do?"

They didn't know what to do, they didn't want to bang the door down, just incase it fell down and hit me. It was lucky Hannah just thought of a way to get in, all she had to do was get something to twisted the lock. So Hannah went to get a CD, the thing she always used to unlock it. They unlocked it a saw blood. They had no idea where it came from. They couldn't see anything else apart from blood, they couldn't even see me.

They were to scared to go it to the bathroom they didn't know what they we're going to see, so they wouldn't let Hannah go in at all.

Luke and Siobhan, slowly walked in and saw you laying on the floor still breathing, lucky. They didn't know what happened or what was going on, all they knew there were me laying on the floor with blood all around me.

Siobhan just shouted

"Hannah get my phone now and bring it too the door now,"

Hannah rusted to get Siobhan phone without saying a word

"Don't come in just pass it to Luke," Hannah pasted the phone to Luke "now Luke call for an ambulance, quick."

While Luke was on the phone with the hospital Siobhan was checking me to see if she could find out where the blood was coming from, she looked at my wrists a saw my, scars.

"She's been, cutting herself, how didn't I know about that? Did you know about it Luke."

They were both shocked and didn't know what to do.

"Siobhan the ambulance is on it's way. I can't believe that Katie would do something like this."

While we were waiting for the ambulance to show up Luke and Siobhan called all my friends and family to tell them what has happened, and what's going on.

They told everyone, and Holly, Bethany, Sophie and Samantha, all said the same thing, "I knew she was getting bullied, but I didn't know that, she was doing this, the bullying has went to far."

Siobhan and Luke didn't even know I was getting bullied.

Well the ambulance go there as quick as possible and, they didn't s quick check up, them rusted me to the hospital. I lost a lot of blood and I was in hospital for 2 weeks and lots of my friends came to see me, Luke, Holly, Bethany, Sophie, Samantha, Ashton, Luciana, Michael, Erin, Calum and Francisco came a visited me everyday. They made my stay in hospital a lot better.

Well that's my story. Since that day everything has changed, they way I think about everything, and I now know that everything will get better. But I will always have these scars.