Lisa's POV
I enjoyed every single moment that I've spent with you .
You never failed to make my heart flattered with every smile,hug and wink you do.
But yet this is the REALITY .
YOU DON'T BELONG TO ME.
*FLASHBACK*
Hays, finally ,we're offcam.. Did you hear how Blinks scream everytime we get close to each other Lisa ? Haha they're really funny . it's funny how they admired us together . like all they gonna say is we have to get married ahahaha .
Jennie said without giving me a glance .
I just smiled at her. I didn't bother to response . what for ?
I look at her, her eyes were glued on the phone .
I smiled sadly as I saw her smiling sweetly because of whoever that person is.
I'm just for show. For camera label.
*End of flashback*
And now, it's New year .. I spent it alone.
It's alright. I'm used to this setup.
I thought celebrating alone in New year's eve is the saddest yet I'm wrong .
I woke up with the heart breaking news about her and him.
I look on the floor like I saw my heart being broken into pieces.
I confirmed if it's real.
Every evidence I saw teared my heart.
I am unconsciously crying. It hurt like hell.
Jennie.. Why him ? Why not me ?
Does he dances better than I do ?
Does he rap better than I do ? Does he takes care of you better that I have did ? Why ?
I'm sure she knew I love her but she still chooses him over me . I'm always here yet she still looks for him. I want her yet she wants him more .. She love me as a friend yet I love her more than that and it hurts the most..
How can I move on with this pain ? How can I face you day by day acting I'm okay, that we're okay Jennie ? How when everytime I see you breaks my heart?
I put my phone.
I took a pen and a paper.
I'm gonna wrote a letter for her since I can't say all of these in person.
To the guy you love ,
I hope he'd takes care of you the way I did. I hope he'd hug and hold you tightly if you happen to watch fireworks together coz I know how it scares you . I hope he'd buy you flowers and hold you everytime you walk with high heels coz you're always prone to fall down . I hope he buys you milk flavor ice cream everytime you're upset coz it'd make you feel good. I hope he sings together with you with your fave songs coz I know how much you love that. I hope he knows how precious you are . I hope he'll treat you like a princess that way I did because Jennie, you are my princess. You are my smile. You are the every beat of my heart. And it's sad because my princess chose to broke my heart . and my princess is now with her prince. 😊
Today, I can say that , you can finally dance without Lisa .
If you're reading this, congrats. You're really literate. Just kidding.
I'm already home when you read this.
I'll heal my heart first and come back when it's finally fixed and when I can finally say that I don't have any feelings for you .
I want you to be happy with him, arraso ? Tell me , if he'd make you cry, I'm gonna come running and get you away from him. That is of course , if I still love you that time .
See you when I see you again Jennie.
---Lisa
I fold the paper and put it in her room.
I prepared my things and ready to leave this place.
I need my family this time.
I guess , life is to unfair to make me happy. Life is to unfair to get what I want.
