If he dies I kill myself. If he cries I cry. speaking of crying I cry every night wishing for his mouth to open and say three words. "I love u" but I know it would never happen. So I gave up at life and lived by these four words "Hopeless Empty Lonely Painful HELP". So now I live killing to keep me sane I love Goldie so much. I'm crying as I type this up. Just know I feel hated and unwanted. I feel dead inside aside from a literal since. I can't live without thinking about him I burst into tears on my knees crying blood yelling "why do I have to be a dumb bunny I'm so dumb I'm so stupid!". I look him so much I would give him the universe if he just gave me his heart I wouldn't feel so empty. But it would never happen. Why would he love me. I can't think straight when I talk to him. If I'm close to him I turn red as a rose. Why can't I be a bunny that Goldie would love. Maybe he's just trying to avoid me. Maybe he secretly hates me. I have no chances of love from him. Not at all. He's too good for me I'm not good enough to be around or to talk to him or see him.
